[Pre-Chorus]
I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found
I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down
It’s hard to swim in a world
Where the homies is taught to drown
It’s lonely upon these grounds
Said I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found
I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down
It’s hard to swim in a world
Where the homies is taught to drown
It’s lonely upon these grounds
[Chorus]
Everything feels gray
Everything feels gray
La da dee da
Everything feels gray
Everything feels gray
La da dee da
[Verse 1]
Synthesis of cognitive distortion
Hallucinogenic trauma filled my conscious, feel it forming
The night before me forcing down the duesse was important
To silencе the voice of demon who priеd itself through my cortex
I felt the depression linin circuits of the motherboard
Intrinsic to my purpose serving work under the Rutherfords
Land of free man was build on backs by those who underscored
The magic of the black man we was bred to move like Dumbledores
Where I come from death is summoned by the rustic sword Conundrums of brother
Either death or jail through humble war
Hung before a crowd that bares complexion
Of thunderstorm and niggas acting shocked when guns are formed
Pressure on my head like I’m Atlas subjected to those Olympians
Expression through my scripture is effortless like Corinthians
The sentience of sentences forces words to leave the page
Let phonetics of my epilogue be set to pave the way
[Pre-Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]
I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)
I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)
It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown
It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)
I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)
I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)
It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown
It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)
[Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]
Everything feels gray
Everything feels gray
La da dee da
Everything feels gray
Everything feels gray
La da dee da
[Verse 2]
Suppress the way you feel, don’t throw no fits nigga
Fuck you crying for, you ain’t no bitch nigga
That’s how they raising us sharks in the Mediterranean
Ain’t realize the masculinity toxic to our behaviors
We grew up thinking that expression was devoid
Connections was destroyed
Affection that our mothers gave was lessened for the boys
That’s why depression was so often bound
Raised to be like demons seen as weapons in the ultrasounds
Deflections of relations led to isolation
Tried my patience finding love to learned my mind was tainted
The obsession over love was really lust
'Cause we was taught that fucking vixen was the only means of finding greatness
Learning truth was so essential, Still not sentimental
My mental processing the damage i inflicted
Coping with the fact that i can’t stand on how I’m living
Led to copping lots of shit off of these bands without prescription
[Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]
I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)
I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)
It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown
It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)
I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)
I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)
It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown
It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)
[Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]
Everything feels gray
Everything feels gray
La da dee da
Everything feels gray
Everything feels gray
La da dee da
[Outro: Alex Banin]
Gray, Gray
I’m gray tonight
Don’t want to relate but it’s so easy
Half glass of wine
Begging demons to go but you don’t want to leave me
All gray sometimes
It’s gray its fine
All gray tonight