Ausar’s Prayer - Intellectual

[Intro: AUSAR]

Dear Lord, I thank you for my Brother Chris

I ask you watch over him

I ask that you lead him

That you guide him

You protect him

I ask you continue to show yourself strong

And let him know that you there, Lord God, and that you have a plan

I know his journey may look different than everybody else's

Lord God I ask that you continue to make him sure of it

Continue to protect him as he enters into these rooms and these spaces

In Jesus’ name, I pray Lord God, and I thank you

And I praise you

Amen

[Verse 1: Chris Patrick]

Can't even act like I'm good ’cause i just got a call from my dawg that our homie just died

Lowkey won't even cry

Bank account not good enough to get back home if I tried

All my bread spent on rent

I feel so fucking tired

Move to LA with the hope of success but I still haven't seen a return on investment

Most of my friends getting married and here I am married to dreams 'til I'm breathless

Giving up ain't a scene I've accepted

Fuck

[Chorus: Chris Patrick]

Feet don't fail me now

I came too far to go back home

So damn close to win

I feel it leaking thru my bones

I hope somebody still praying for me

Hope someone praying for me

[Verse 2: Chris Patrick]

Hoping that someday my ex might forgive me for breaking it off in attempt to be selfish

Truth is, I’m high key ashamed of it

My love for this goal overpowered the love that enwrapped our relationship

Paramore songs leave me triggered

Part of me knows she was hurt, but the hurt of regret in my soul’d have been bigger

I use to fear that I'll die unfulfilled tryna please everybody instead

Now i just fear that I’ll end up alone on the day that I'm actually dead

Steep price to pay but I'm willing to pay it's what worth

If it means evolution and taking the reigns off whole generational curse, I promise I’m down

Label just pushed back the project and most days I feel like I'm losing my confidence

Tours going out and the skipping my name for the bill cause I'm lacking accomplishments

Somedays I feel like I failed when i start to reflect

Voices of granny still cheering me on is the reason I still haven't checked

Just gotta call from Gabe

He want me to link up with Kai and rap for the stream

Part of me scared 'cause deep down I know if I choke I probably just pack up the dream

Last chance to make it I might as well jump from the cliff