[Intro]

The lord of glory

Let the church say amen

Anybody else wanna come up here and give they testimony

During this communion day?

Anybody wanna share they story?

Sister Black, wanna come on up here and talk to us?

Come on up here, sister Black, come on

Talk to these people

[Verse 1]

Look, I tend to hide when I grieve

Losin' my brother hurt so much that I cry in my sleep

I'm wakin' up outta my dreams every night in a scream

Tryna find reasons, sheddin' tears look like my eyes bleedin'

Mind-readin' can't even process the thoughts I think

I have my best conversations when it's just God and me

Was confused, shit, feel like I'm drunk without a drink

Got that call, made me sick to my stomach, it's hard to eat

It'll shatter you, my heart's pure, it never matter who

Never show loyalty to me, I'm givin' gratitude

Tragic news, pain that left me in the saddest mood

Depressed and family assumin' it's just my attitude

I'm stressed bad, feelin' guilty after my best laugh

For years I been dealin' with trauma, I took a step back

From friends dyin' to prison visits and see my step dad

So ahead of my time, when I sleep, I wake from jetlag

Peace hidin' from me, best friends in the sky above me

Scared to open up to my man, and all he doin' is tryna love me

Used to spend the night with buddies

But scared to sleep 'cause her brother keep comin' in the room tryna touch me

It's gon' take more than a prayer just to fix that

'Cause even when my truth come to the light, it still be pitch black

I don't stress about bills, I know how to get cash

Shit, I'm stressin' 'bout losses I'll never get back, for real

[Interlude]

Alright now, sister Black, I hear that pain, girl

I like that

I'ma need you to watch that cursin', though

Know we are in the house of the Lord

I hear that pain, girl, talk about that

Day of the com— oh, oh, you got more to say? (Uh-huh)

[Verse 2]

Pain so deep, sometimes my way to heal is to ignore it

Happiness comes at a price and I still can not afford it

Get to a place in life where maintainin' is harder

Wasted days when the liquor started tastin' like water

Drunk nights by myself weighed on my shoulders that only dyin' could help

I became a bride to my wealth

Tossed dimes in a well, cry out for help, my eyes on a sale

Risin' from Hell, but I could never lie to myself

Was a shy girl, quiet as hell, dealt with anxiety

They put me in them special ed classes and tried deprivin' me

Mental health not addressed in our society

Never was a highlight, my thoughts like, "Why try?"

Thirteen years since Nancy was killed, crazy how time flies

My childhood friend, I still get tears from my eyes

A month after I moved to the Falls, wasn't in my right mind

Get a phone call, said she got killed in a drive-by

She was fourteen, I'm thinkin', "How could y'all do this?"

She was a good kid, woulda been a honor roll student

Scary to share these things, they embarrass me as a fiend

Not ashamed to say I go to therapy every week

Got a man I love, we both been through it, it's hard to see romance

I'm tryna love a man that was never taught how to be a man

The pain I heard and shit I seen'll leave you deaf and blind

Press recline, gotta keep my head up high for my niggas

[Outro]

What did I say about that cursin'?

Gim— Gimme that damn mic

Got me cursin' in the house of the Lord

Give it up for sister Black, y'all

Amen, good Lord of glory, amen

Amen

God got you through it, girl, he gon' keep gettin' you through it

You'll keep gettin' through it, I just—

I just need you to work on that cursin' for me

Work— Work on them curse words

Amen, hallelujah