Can’t trust my brain

No, I can’t trust that shit

Didn’t even go outside still put on the drip

Doubt told me I shouldn't make music

Doubt told me I should quit

Doubt told me I was fucking stupid

Doubt told me I wouldn't do it

Doubt said I wouldn't get through it

Is anything worth it?

Is there a purpose?

The same questions always resurface

How long do we gotta keep working?

The complexity often leaves me wordless

Maybe the explanation lies in words we ain't heard yet

Maybe it lies beneath the surface

Fuck a purpose, maybe life is worthlеss

I'm not worthless

My dad told me, you quit or commit

And if your gonna quit, then own it

So I stuck with it

You’rе not original

Everythings been done before

You’ll always be poor

Life tryna push me to the floor

You can’t even get your ass out the door

You can’t even handle your responsibilities now

Why should they give you more?

Thought you was on a roll

Shit slowly takes a toll

Nagging at your soul

Pushing you below

Making you feel low

You can’t achieve your goals

They all wanna know what I’m up to

I don’t even got a clue

I ain’t even tryna be rude

I don’t know what the fuck I'm gonna do

Some days I feel like there is too much to do

Other days I wish someone would tell me what to do

They say Practice makes perfect

But then they say nobody's perfect

What’s the point of starting if it isn’t gonna be perfect?

Is it even worth it?

I get overwhelmed in the infinite possibilities

So stuck in my head that in the real world it's like I got invisibility

These days people ask you questions

But they are only looking for one answer

If I knew you were gonna try to convince me to say yes

I probably wouldn't have answered

What’s the fucking hurry?

What's the point of money if you're not happy?

But how can you be happy without money?

When someone dies feel like I'm not allowed to be happy

Not sad I'm just discouraged

I'm not depressed just lack courage

Can’t see the path forward, I can’t be encouraged

Emotions aren't the enemy

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me

I was offended when they tried to take me to therapy

I don't like to talk about my emotions publicly

I’m a different person around different people

What the heck is wrong with me?

Sometimes it feels like they care more about my life than me

I’m glad they care but they don’t have my viewpoint

They like go with your heart but I don’t even trust my own judgment at this point

At some points in your life, it is like digging in hard ground

You barely make a dent and get all bent out of shape in the process

Gotta stop treating life like a contest

When it comes to getting through life everyone's got their own process

We never get to know people

We know what they look like

We know what they said

But we never know what's going on inside their head

Some people always speak their mind, we tell 'em to shut the fuck up your annoying

Some people keep it all inside, we tell them that there boring

The human race fucked up like some beat up NMDs

Sometimes life just feels empty

You try and try but can't find what missing

Shit just ain’t clicking

Don't do drugs but I'm still trippin'

I’m a baby the way I can't communicate what's going on in my head

The worst feeling is dread

At least I’m not dead

I’m known as the always happy guy

So when I'm not it's hard to show that side

Like to keep it deep inside

When I get like this I just wanna hide

That's why none of y'all even know that guy

Deal with it myself I don't confide

Don't let 'em know, can't lose my pride

Why do so many people have to die?

I don't wanna live a lie