Man this blonde got me twisted, now I barely feel at all

Used to stress about these hoes, now I let ’em rise and fall

Heart turned ice cold, I don’t chase shit no more

You can keep the fake love, I ain’t dying over whores

April 24th, ain’t think shit would change

Popped a MONSTER with the gang, moving reckless through the rain

Linked with DJYarrak, HEBO, searching where the hoes be

Whole function full of fake vibes, everybody lonely

Then this shawty threw it back, HEBO hit her with “hell nah”

Then she turned and chose me, I ain’t even feel the dopamine

Sat right on my lap, kissing all across my face

I ain’t even feel excitement, I just stared off into space

Whole squad outside waiting while she moving like she desperate

Tongue in my mouth but honestly that shit was expected

Carried shawty out the function, everybody calling me lucky

Funny thing is all I felt was emptier and disgusted

Month later your mask slipped, now your image looking filthy

Got a boyfriend somewhere else but still moving way too easy

Kissed me, kissed my cousin too, damn your loyalty dead

Then you begged me keep it secret while your lies stacked instead

Talking ’bout “don’t tell him,” acting scared of consequences

Then you tried manipulating with them suicide messages

That toxic shit don’t move me, I got no time for the drama

You create chaos everywhere then blame it on your trauma

Yesterday you at my crib cause your parents kicked you out

Then your mama called my phone saying cops looking around

Therapist involved too, now your life look tragic

Meanwhile I’m just sitting there unfazed by all this madness

Too much weird shit round your name, that’s why I detached

I don’t hate you, I just see you as another mismatch

I was writing from emotions, now them feelings disappeared

Every memory got colder every month and every year

You talking ’bout “do it again,” bitch you missing the point

I don’t need temporary lust just to feel some joy

I ain’t searching for connections, I got used to being numb

People switch too fucking fast, now I trust absolutely none

The blonde was just a lesson, brunette just another face

Everybody say “forever” till forever fades away

Mixed signals, fake love, all that shit the same to me

Now my heart so disconnected I don’t feel a thing I see

Cause I used to write from pain, now I write without emotion

Cold soul, blank stare, mind darker than the ocean

Every line inside this song sound dead behind the tone

Young kid, cold heart… now I’m better off alone