[Verse 1]

Dad was such a bore

Thank god we got rid of him

It's time for some Ritalin

But I'm stuck in the middle of

A laughing fit, another sip, another bit of the smoke that keeps my soul lit

Tonight is a special night, tonight is the night I feel alive again

More alive than in the last ten years

Or was it twelve? Excuse me here

How in the hell should I care about these little facts

When I'm living in dreck like this

But it doesn't have to be like this

I say as I give the mirror a heartfelt kiss

As I make another cross on my wishlist

Steven is gone and I'm sure that I killed him

[Verse 2]

I cut myself on the bottle, the pain goes full throttle

As I try to ease the pain by taking another shot

My head is feeling hot as I squash my cigarette

The smoke is so thick, you could cut it like bread

I always gave my wife nice gifts

At least I think, I don't remember

A dozen violets, in September

She was still crying two weeks later

So ungrateful

Doesn't she know paradise is where I take her?

The door clicks, I should talk to her

This is gonna be a long walk

I scream at her, she squeaks

She sees my shadow arrive on the scene

She steps back with her back to the wall

I have always been taller than her

But tonight she seems so small

[Verse 3]

She always got flowers, have another rose

For the middle of your face, like my father spoke

To my mother, Distant screaming

My eyes light up seemingly out of nowhere

You need a vase for the flowers

My head can not devour anything else than

The rush of nausea and it's power

I didn't notice it has been one hour

I step back, get to the room that I was in

I grab myself a big bottle of gin

Return to the living-room

But I couldn't consume it

Because I laughed like I howled at the moon

Then I screamed