Paying Dues - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I’m trying to pay my rent, pay my dues

Pay for the drugs that I gave in to

Spent a pay check on some new tight shoes

Now I eat cereal at dinner time too

Still layin' low with the winter time crew

Looking for Aphrodite, one day I’ll find you

I would go wherever you are if only I knew

But it takes time boo, I know when I see you I’mma say Woah

Skin tight dress like Woah, body something I ain’t never seen before

Make my brain straight Blow, maybe I’mma meet you at a show

But until then I’mma focus on the flow, and I mean it

My mind is such a board game, tell me have you seen it?

Battling my judgement, giving in to demons

I’m sick of all the other parts of life intervening

‘Cause the music and rhyme is when I find true meaning

Television’s got my generation near sighted

Part of me wants to stay out but I fight it

For what? A big mac and a few bucks?

A bud light and a new truck? Damn, what the fuck?

Everything’s all messed up, but speaking my mind ain’t tough

I almost gave up on something I've never tried for

Something I rely on, something I would die for

Smashed in the side door, looking in the sky for

An answer to rid of the cancer that spread

In my mentality, skewed my reality

Who would know this fallacy almost lead to fatality?

Ninety-five in a thirty-five, momma cried

Yet I couldn’t even look her in the eyes

All shame that followed I chased with a swallow

But I never found a letter in the bottom of a bottle, no

Everything from then on I just let it go

And anything that hurts I don’t let it show

I could give a fuck 'bout the radio

‘Cause anything I have to say is something they ain’t even know

If you remember one it’s just breathe and

Don’t get too caught up living in the past

My love didn’t last, but if it didn’t pass

It never would’ve lead me to this task, and that’s to ask

[Bridge]

Why am I here? What is God?

Am I just some stardust or am I more?

I’m spinning around, losing my ground

I need you right now, oh

[Hook]

Won’t you hold me when I’m down, lift me when I’m down

Please don’t let me drown, I don’t want to drown

Won’t you catch me before I fall, I’m trying to give my all

Searching for something, something

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[Verse 2]

Wasting away, wasting my days

Hoping I’mma make it out this mundane phase

I keep having dreams on a one way train

Where I end up at a station in a no name place

As a no name race and I’m caught up in a chase

Got the evils of the world creeping at a fast pace

Wake up in fluster, sweat on my face

I ain’t too religious but I still say grace

And I don’t know, why even try when the sky

Is all covered in smog making clouds' eyes cry

Bouncing my soul off a man-made trampoline

On my heart I can feel the devil trampling

On my life I see politicians gambling

Will I make it past 30 or not?

Watch ‘em bet another M and simply throw it in the pot

So if I smoke pot they will see me get locked

Hope not, so I won’t stop, ’til I’m on top

No cop I won’t coop., gimme that shock

If it need be, giving into fighting that’s easy

But I got too many other people that really need me

So beating on my ass is a freebie, proceed please

But remember that we’re on the same team

And red white and blue are the colors I am bleeding

Fear is what you’re fleeting, propaganda's what you’re eating