Released on September 29, 2023

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[Chorus]

You know that I am sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile

You know that I am sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile

(Anonymass)


[Verse 1]

Yeah, growin' up, wasn't a kid they believed would prosper

Back when Dad was gettin' 'scripts from a crooked doctor

Back when I was readin' 'scripts from the book of vodka

I used to keep a half a zip in my student locker

Older sis was expelled, went to school at Excel

With all the other bad kids, made it hard to excel

I was fifteen when Ben taught me how to inhale

Stopped prayin' then 'cause I was used to livin' in hell

Burnt like sage, but I wasn't on the Indian Trail

Before we ever went to jail, was gettin' plenty of bales

Back before your favorite rapper albums' lyrics were stale

I kept my clientele small out of fear they would tell

I used to run with the drug dealers, felt like they was big brothers

After Pops died, I had to eat, so I skipped supper

Bumper car love, between us, there's a big buffer

Runnin' from your own pain just made your kids suffer

Leavin' my crib, went on a comma chase

Never justified the tears put on my Momma face

I swear she cried for a year straight

Tryna hold this family together, but my hands were like clear tape

Easy to break, straight face 'cause a smile wasn't easy to fake

And mistakes were a dime a dozen, easy to make

But this pill bottle felt like concrete, it wasn't easy to shake


[Chorus]

Sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile

You know that I am sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile


[Verse 2]

I saw the look of fear was overtakin' my Moms

When I signed to Birdman, the studio full of dons

And drugs piled next to the interface intercom

Second guessin' what type of person I would become

She had a skepticism that wasn't easily won

From growin' up in a trailer and gettin' beat like a drum

Alcoholic parents abusin' her like it's fun

They died never even acknowledgin' what they'd done

And then she met my Pops, her fate was already spun

He moved her up out the trailer and that was where they begun

Changed her life, gave her a daughter, then had a son

Vowed to keep her safe, she had nowhere she could run

And then one day, after the smoke had filled up his lungs

He lost half his hand at work in an accident

Got introduced to the Oxycontin to numb

Then started gettin' high with my sister, my Mom was done

Realizin' that he had lost it all, he was stunned

The heaviness of his sins was weighin' on him a ton

4/20, I left to school to roll me a blunt

He went upstairs, said his goodbye with a smokin' gun

See me and drugs got such a painful way we entangle

We try to dance 'round with the devil and twist our ankles

I try to take a look at my life from different angles

But seem like everybody I love leave me for angels

For makin' music and havin' fans, I'm more than thankful

I toured around the country, got reasons I should be grateful

But every time I did drugs with 'em, I felt shameful

Knowin' this the reason my Momma suffer

Losin' everybody that she love to downers and uppers

Never strong enough to kick it for her, I gotta be tougher

Vowed to never take you through the rain or ever end up the same

Before I die, you gonna be proud of me, Mother, I love you


[Chorus]

Sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile

You know that I am sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile

You know that I am sorry, Momma

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to make you cry

Only wanna see you smile