The world I thought I knew dissolved and born again

In the form of truth (I was unprepared)

All of my indiscretions digested at the same time

Crushing self-awareness without a warning sign

(There's no warning sign)

For the past five years, I've been a wreck

If I could find my heart

I'd apologize from the bottom of it

Self-destruction is hard to admit

Staring at the aftermath of an ego death

I close my eyes and catch my breath

I can't believe I let myself get this far

Consistently tearing myself apart

Reconstruction so out of reach

Redemption's in the wreckage just dig deep beneath

I've been avoiding divine intervention

I've had my head in the clouds, but now I'm ready to come down

I'm hell-bound

Devil on my shoulder, hello, my old friend

Have you come to gamble with me again?

The stakes are raised, I'll put it all down on red

Or let the black send me to my end

For the past five years, I've been a wreck

If I could find my heart, I'd apologize from the bottom of it

Self-destruction is hard to admit

Staring at the aftermath of an ego death

I close my eyes and catch my breath

I can't believe I let myself get this far

Consistently tearing myself apart

Reconstruction so out of reach

Redemption's in the wreckage

Just dig deep beneath

Such destruction formed by untimely circumstance

Reality misconception through a psychedelic trance

The requiem played on

Yet there was no one to dance

All mankind caught in a loveless romance

Are we so desensitized that we've forgotten what's real?

Numbing life down to a complacent, synthetic feel

I will not bow down to this out-of-touch reality

We live lifeless lives

Glorify your mortality

Hold on to every moment

When you're overwhelmed and brought to tears

So out of touch and hardened

Why is it that we can't grasp these years?

Not the lost hope or sadness

But burdens we've conquered in times of madness