While everyone's sleeping in their bed

I'm wide awake, lost in my head

I'm so fucking tired and out of breath

And it's been like this ever since you left

I was always more careless than careful

Losing grips on things I cared for

My body's tired and these eyes are sore

Forever drifting while you're safe ashore

While everyone's smug with second-best

I'll bandage these wounds inside my chest

Been carrying the weight of the world and just can't do it anymore

It's impossible to be invincible in a world that's so deceitful

But I just keep pretending that never sinking is believable

Well, I've been down and I've been out

But this is something I've never felt

The letters and the promises you've sent

Have only brought me hell

I'm breaking up the cycle of letting you pull me down

Can you feel the ground shake? It caves from your weight

Empty promises can't save you now

The clarity of your voice has since turned to white noise and static

It seems my outline and your scant design weren't meant for this schematic

I've become numb to what's come undone

Your secondhand stories like sun before morning

Lost the shine that lit up your eyes

Your brightest words are your boldest lies

(Your world is so very small, a silent curtain call)

(I won't be around when it all comes crashing down)

You've left me short on breath, I'm speechless

Clinging to the only air I still have left

Avoiding death

I can feel the room getting smaller and closing in

Well, I've been down and I've been out

But this is something I've never felt

The letters and the promises you've sent

Have only brought me hell

I'm breaking up the cycle of letting you pull me down

Can you feel the ground shake? It caves from your weight

Empty promises can't save you now

The clarity of your voice has since turned to white noise and static

It seems my outline and your scant design weren't meant for this schematic

What hurts the most isn't the fact that our lives changed

It's how I've become so obsolete, but I'll thrive from what remains

I've always been an open book, letting you skim through every chapter

Now the pages are finally closed, a catalyst for your disaster

Well, now you're down, the one that's out

And this is something you've never felt

With these words, I've helped myself grow inside and out of doubt

And I know this brings you hell

I finally broke the cycle of letting you pull me down

Can you feel the ground shake? It caves from your weight

Empty promises can't save you now

The clarity of your voice has since turned to white noise and static

It seems my outline and your scant design weren't meant for this schematic

Was I the needle in your arm, the reason for your bad habit?

Or were those empty words of a withdrawing addict?

When the drugs are gone, I hope one thing remains

I pray my voice still echoes through your veins