[Verse 1]

Travel ban throughout the land, didn’t get a chance to visit

It’s crazy how much things can change in just a span of minutes

My family dealing with some things, but shit what family isn’t?

Couldn’t pay his rent, the pandemic took his family’s business

Now you could quit and tell your kids that Santa canceled Christmas

Or you can grind 'cause somebody got to man the trenches

And as a man it’s mandatory that I grant the wishes of everyone depending on me

A bandage to some damaged bitches

The type of girl that break your heart and then demand forgiveness

Who always claims she understands but then she stands against it

And I had framed all those photos I had scanned and printed

But my heart still hangs onto emotions that my camera didn’t

Damn I miss it

Thought we’d grow together but expanded different

Finally found myself and I don’t care 'cause my companion missing

Can’t no one get close to me, my siblings and my parents distant

Panicked then you vanished and I can’t find the advantage in it

Eventually I’ll be the man to meet your standard limits

Here to help you manage when you stranded and your lamp is diminished

All my life I ain’t held nothing in my hand this vivid

As that feeling we would hold inside back when the chance existed

Damn, I guess it’s over for real

I’m still surprised that you left although you told me you will

'Cause I kept on holding inside the shit you chose to reveal

I think what hurts me most is that I know how you feel

[Verse 2]

I’ll always be your soldier mama

‘Member what I told you mama

You could put your struggles on my shoulders now, I’m older mama

Both of us been waiting on the day that I get sober mama

But I’ve been rolling doja mama

Tryna keep composure mama

Bank account low cause ain’t no shows or no promoters mama

Only stayed afloat because you know I got that motor mama

Day that I stopped growing, gave up working on my floater mama

Studio my focus, ain’t gon’ stop until I’m goated mama

You know where I hold you mama

Middle of my heart forever

Tryna find my wife is hard cause next to you she hardly measure

Think I got my confidence from times you called me smart and clever

No it ain’t my pops, he gets no props, that nigga call me never

Used to never think about the past but now it’s partly pleasure

Flashing back before we fell apart and it was all together

Darkness in my heart my chest is started with a sparkled treasure

Lost it all in parts to every broad I gave a partial effort

Now I’m on my own when I’m alone I’m prone to fall from pressure

Never been too good at anything that might involve forever

Praying I evolve to not revolve around this awful weather

I’ll be better…ah whatever