[Verse]

Don't ask me how I feel, I feel however the drugs feel

I just get high until it feels like we in love still

But then I notice, I'm alone and this a buzzkill

And I don't trust myself 'cause nobody that I trust will

I still remember when we first met

You told me you might be the girl that leave me hurt next

We laughed about it

But what's so wild about your smile is I ain't seen it in a while and now I can't laugh without it

You were the only bright spot on all my dark days

Lost my rock, now I reside in a hard place

Ride or die it's all fake

I realized that you lost faith

Way before you called

Like I'm decided the park ways

I should have saw the signs

I hope that nigga that you dating know you always mine

And what we have was amazing, just at an awful time

Don't tell me that you moved on if I ain't off your mind

And time heals wounds, I hope it heals mine soon

'Cause every day doing nothing what I feel like doing

Trapped inside of a room, can't nobody get to 'em

Scared to meeting new people and fearing how they gon' do 'em

Girl I'm uninterested, in pretending like we're friends and shit

We used to be different, the difference is all of our differences

I know you sick of my binging and my addictedness

Just thought you be more empathetic towards my emptiness

Girl, I miss you like I miss my granny

Shit, I don't know who I miss more

How come everything I take for granted

Is everything that I wish for

Maybe I'll never understand it

Maybe I could've did more

All that shit that's killin' me

Give me that feeling that I live for

You take my name of another nigga that loved you fresh out the bed

You missed my calls, I text his dad and you really left them on read, the bloodshead

I forgave you, but can't forget

I don't hate you, I hate the stress

I just hate the way that you [dead?]

And I hate to make you upset

But in case we just can't connect

And I'm changing, just has you claiming

Ain't no shame, I change for the best

All that shit that's killin' me

Give me that feeling that I live for