[Verse 1]

Yeah, yeah

Why doesn't everyone get second chances?

Another question I can never answer

I ain't been living up to heaven’s standards

I’m hoping god just never check the cameras

Why would he hand us what we couldn't handle?

And yo, it’s hard to keep believing when the hope is gone

When your bank account overdrawn

You always feel like you supposed to run

Contemplating with a loaded gun

Yeah, I done thought about it more than once

But yo, you somebody’s everything

Even if it don't feel like it

Depression hurts, but you should never get killed by it

All pill diet

Anything to make you real tired

Now the money low, but the bills higher

Locked in these walls

My granny like “here, I got you this cross”

Just hold it and think of me through all the times you feel lost

So much sentimental value, don't care how much it costs

You the only one that saw through my flaws

[Chorus]

I just hope that I’m forgiven

For The way that I been living

[Verse 2]

Terrorized by my own thoughts

Paralyzed through my whole heart

Terrified my shit won't spark

Yeah, I keep thinking “I’ll get it, this just a slow start”

That was last March

Anything to live my dream

I threw my life away

Success is more like an oven than like a microwave

And god be handing out his blessings all types of ways

So just be ready for the tidal wave

Still searching for my independence

I call my dog like “bro, it’s been a minute”

I know this ain't go the way we intended

But when I think about our friendship I just feel resentment

Overextending, not knowing life was so open-ended

I hope we mended I know you timid from my ascendance

But I gotta get it

My biggest fear is to die a witness

I know my body is rented

My soul is just a tenant

I know my future’s the remnants of all my past decisions

And if I die before you hear this just know that it takes a village

And yo, you was a piece in apart of making me fearless

You the realest

And no, I don’t never know what my deal is

I’ve always had a problem with never showing my feelings

Now I’m opening up until I’m sobering up

Yo, I gave this shit my all and I just hope it’s enough

And I been filled with so much hate I’m trynna focus on love

But I think everybody broken as fuck

[Chorus]

I just hope that I’m forgiven

For The way that I been living