[Verse 1]

I done been through hell and back, chasing dreams selling raps

Rather share my story now, 'cause I know they gon' tell it whack

Niggas said that I would fail, hold this L, I'm well intact

Clientele developing from selling crack

Even though I'm barely ever sleeping, treat my body like I'm Iron Man

Poppin' all these Robert Downey Juniors tryna fly again

Mama I've been spending all my nights inside that lion den

'Cause I ain't wanna see you cry again

Vino where you been at? 'Preciate the impact

Heard that I just missed you, guess it was a mishap

Living out in Dallas now you ballin' like Kristaps

But you want my opinion, you should probably get your bitch back

Dawg we been connеcted from the bottom like a chinstrap

So don't tеll me you no different when you switch up I can sense that

If even when you're tripping bro, just hit me, I'm on dispatch

The past is just the present we present inside a gift wrap

[Chorus]

Livin' in a disarray, reminisce and drift away

I ain't been granted every wish but I guess this okay

Wishing I could fix it, hey

Maybe on a different day

Now every time I close my eyes it feels like parts of my life go by

I fall right apart, don't quite know why

Busy watching life go by

[Verse 2]

Brittany you still heaven-sent, everything I said I meant

Hope that he can take you all them places that we never went

I've been chasing paper baby everyday I'm stressing rent

Time's the only treasure that I never spent

Losing all my values, I ain't never had no morals

Always been to proud to sit and rest upon my [?]

Now my petal on that floor until I'm dead below the floral

Should've died so many times sometimes I question if I'm mortal

Now I can't even look at you, 'cause every time I see your face

All I see if everything you put me through

You probably think I'm bulletproof

'Cause I be acting confident and full of myself, but shorty I was only fooling you

I promise if you fully knew

How much I fear that I won't be good as you

When you find someone new that your energy should be put into

Just keep on rollin' your kush and letting it cushion you

And I'll be home for you soon

[Chorus]

Livin' in a disarray, reminisce and drift away

I ain't been granted every wish but I guess this okay

Wishing I could fix it, hey

Maybe on a different day

Now every time I close my eyes it feels like parts of my life go by

I fall right apart, don't quite know why

Busy watching life go by