Difficult 2 Love - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

My homie asked me how every has been

And I wanna tell him but I don't know where to start

There's random days I can physically feel my family fade

And it feels like it's tearing me apart

The love I have is a love I don't wanna lose

'Cause losing love be wearing out my heart

I tell my shorty "I'm sorry for all my stupid decisions"

She like "Calen don't even start"

All my life I just been difficult to love and very easy to leave

It's hard to hide a broken heart when you bleeding out of your sleeve

And it's so dark inside my mind I can't find a reason to breathe

Never satisfied with anything I achieve

Am I ambitious or ungrateful?

I've attempted to be faithful

But temptation is a bitch that I done gave a couple facials in my past

If I can't have you baby this the only favor that I ask

Please don't ever let no other nigga change the way you laugh (Yeah)

Complications from miscommunications turned my relationships to trash (Yeah)

Shit changes in a flash (Yeah)

All my life I just been difficult to love and very easy to leave

It's hard to hide a broken heart when you bleeding out of your sleeve

And it's so dark inside my mind I can't find a reason to breathe

Never satisfied with anything I achieve

And I've never been the best person or artist but I've always worked my hardest

Patiently waiting on fruits of my labor from all I harvest

Inside I've harbored a darkness from times I was broken hearted

Was faded to fight the feeling and feelings faded regardless

Got holes in all of my garments and hoes inside my apartment

The love that I had in store has departed from all departments

I'm focused on what's important and what's gon' to take me the farthest

So far from Good Charlotte whole heart inside the garbage

'Cause I'm difficult to love