[Intro]

I've been so close I can taste it

I've been so far I've been patient

I take a bar and get wasted

Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship

It's written all on my face and no one relates

I don't know how long I can take it

You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

That's an alright imitation, yeah

[Verse 1]

I find it hard to describe my anxiety

Feel like my heart and my mind got a rivalry

Feel like my thoughts and emotions are fighting inside of me

I gotta get this shit out of me

I feel like Forrest I'm running from everything

I never saw that shit in its entirety

If you need someone to get something

90 percent done and quit on it, you should just hire me

I'm feeling closer to death

I feel a hole in my chest

Feel like I'm stuck underwater

Feel like I'm holding my breath

Like it's the only one left

Nobody know I'm depressed

Even the people that know me the best

I call my momma, she told me to rest

I only get out of bed to get more cigarettes, yeah

[Chorus]

I've been so close I can taste it

I've been so far I've been patient

I take a bar and get wasted

Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship

It's written all on my face and no one relates

I don't know how long I can take it

You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

That's an alright imitation, yeah

[Verse 2]

Is someone coming to save me?

I'm faded it don't even phase me

I've had a hater that's showing me love

And I've had a lover betray me

I've had a lot of lessons, still got a lot of questions

Still don't got any answers

Eat your veggies, pray for a lotta blessings

Die from like 20 cancers

That's why I'm taking these drugs

That's why I'm up till the morning

Shot, after shot, after shot, I can't stop it I'm zoning

Shrugging like Jordan did playing against Portland

Still can't afford all the shit that I need

I get too anxious when I hit the weed

I take a pill and I'm feeling relieved

I take another, I triple the speed

[Chorus]

I've been so close I can taste it

I've been so far I've been patient

I take a bar and get wasted

Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship

It's written all on my face and no one relates

I don't know how long I can take it

You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

That's an alright imitation, yeah

[Verse 3]

I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think

I'm losing touch if I'm touching a screen

One minute I think I love everybody

And then I'm like "Fuck everything"

I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think

I'm losing touch if I'm touching a screen

One minute I think I love everybody

And then I'm like "Fuck everything"

On a highway to Hell, or a stairway to Heaven

And I'm stuck in the middle, I can't make a decision

I don't think I'm suicidal, but if I was, I won't admit it

Like I'd be okay with dying if I'm not the one who did it

[Chorus]

I've been so close I can taste it

I've been so far I've been patient

I take a bar and get wasted

Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship

It's written all on my face and no one relates

I don't know how long I can take it

You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

That's an alright imitation, yeah