it ain’t the same - Intellectual

CAIN:

Back in high school I would struggle to make friends

Didn't clique with nobody, I didn’t follow the trends

What was the point? I mean, all of it ends

Living in my mind was like looking through a lens, like

I'd be thinking shit that wasn't really true

Someone say they love me and my mind threw it askew

I would tell myself "man, nobody fuck with you"

Then I’d give an excuse and never shift my point of view

Being hateful was easy, 'cause for love I had to change

I was too used to my familiar pain

I had to put in some effort, knowing it could be in vain

I reflexively tensed whenever someone said my name

I lived for drama, seeing everything vicarious

Even if it meant putting me somewhere precarious

No matter what it was, I never took nothing serious

And if you hated me, then you had to be delirious

Took a couple years, to find my sense of self

Had to break some habits that were damaging my health

I really love the craft, I don't do it for the wealth

I'ma really make it work with the hand that I was dealt

CAIN & Jupiterkami:

Yeah

It ain't the same

(You won't make mistakes again)

Uh, uh

I'm not the same

I’m not the same

(You won’t make mistakes again)

Jupiterkami:

In retrospect, my dialect imitate-

Culture or so they say

Truth be told my nature is fraudulent

Begging for the compliments

Never came my way, now I got a heart of hate

The old me, a code switch, ‘cause what the people say

A lack validation turned to bitterness

Everything's a hit or miss

I embraced the wickedness

Opposing all the populous

Feigning I had confidence

Fabricated dominance

Attitude of rottenness

But it had a consequence

I seen my circle getting smaller

At the time I refused to see it as my fault

Everyone’s accomplishments, made me lack acknowledgment

Off and on I'm proud of them, but it took a toll

Backhanded compliments, they seeing through the facade

Initiating arguments, I had a talk with God

My friends had enough of it

Now I walk alone, with bitterness, regretting that I'm lost

CAIN & Jupiterkami:

Yeah

It ain't the same

It ain’t the same

(You won't make mistakes again)

Uh, uh

I'm not the same

(You won't make mistakes again)

CAIN:

I keep telling my mom that her son gon' be a star

I never even thought that I could make it this far

Here I was worried, that I wasn't up to par

But every new tape, I keep raising up the bar

To everyone who hated me, I pray you always blessed

Living in the moment, but still thinking 'bout what's next

I open up my phone, no longer worried bout a text

I'm thinking bout the old me that has been laid to rest

You don't have to forgive me, for I know I've done you wrong

I let the demons win for far too long

I focused on myself, now I'm steady getting strong

I finally found a place where I feel like I belong

Tell my family I'm sorry

Friends that I'm sorry

Enemies I'm sorry

CAIN:

It ain't the same

I'm not the same