Better part of me knew that I could never become

The better man I wanted to see

The other part of me, clinging to hope and hoping to faith

As though it mattered to me

But the faith that I had is the anchor attached

To the rope that I sewed that I held in my hand

Then it dragged me into the abyss that is this

I'm afraid that I may be in way over my head

I should've known better

I should've known better

They tell me everything happens for a reason

All I needed was to try and believe

I guess it never occurred to me a person behind the curtain

Could be pulling the strings

But the fact is, I asked them for help when I fell to my knees

And I begged and I pleaded, I needed a cure in the words

I'm alone and I'm hurt

And afraid that I may be in way over my head

I should've known better

I should've known better

I should've known better

I should've known, I should've known

Even if I ever cared a little bit, I couldn't admit it

It wasn't even a decision that I wanted to make

It was all a mistake, no one could ever consider me getting better

If I ever made an effort to change what I am

And god damn, what I am is a broken man

So I throw my hands up and stand

Thinking back a little with the should've-could've-would've

Like I should've went to college and I could've got a job

And then I would've put a little money in the bank

But the boat that I built was the boat that I sank

And it's gone

The choices I made are the reasons I love and the reasons I hate

And the reasons I do what I do, and I'm doing my best everyday

I should've known better

I should've known better

I should've known, I should've known