Why'd you have to bring the fucking gun, man?
I fall apart, hit the grass, trippin' through the bathroom door
Vomit in the sink, I'm soaking up my tears
Sitting in a stall, why can't I disappear?
Slowly, slowly, sip the rest of my drink
I never wanted to end up here
Slowly, slowly, I know that I'll be
I will be more than I remember
Look this up, 'cause did you ever notice?
You're ashamed to appear
(As a soft guy)
I will not judge, but I'm walking out the front door
I'm reaching for a cigarette
*FUCK!*
I forgot, I ran out last night, (oh man :/)
Slowly, slowly, walking to the drug store
I never wanted to end up here
Slowly, slowly, it starts to hit me
"I will never be what I dreamed up"
Slowly, slowly, walking to the drug store
I never wanted to end up here
Slowly, slowly, I start to realize
"I will never be what I dreamed of"
(Oh man, I guess I'll fuck off again
I'm getting fucked up again
Oh man, I think I fucked up again
Oh no, oh no
I think I'm fucked up again)
The drugs make my vision go black
I'm fine when I'm high
I don't feel that much anymore
The kind of numb that almost makes you sore
When I'm alone on a Sunday
I can't help but fall to my knees
And pray to god that maybe someday
I won't have to ask for help anymore
I'd like to pretend that it'll be okay
That we'll be okay, that we'll be fine
We sit in silence from time to time
We can't help but feel the pressure
I'm scared to admit, and show you my faults
Like the scars on my arms
I didn't stop to think about the blood on my best shirt
Have you ever felt your chest cave in
Like a heart attack, when it all sets in
(The blood on my best shirt)
Have you ever felt your chest cave in
Like a heart attack, when it all sets in?