Released on September 20, 2019

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[Verse 1]

I sent my résumé to God

In MLA and 12 point font

My awards are all in order and my references are pretty strong

My bullet points concise and now my grammar's fixed and typos found

I'm hopin' if she sees it I have made my English teacher proud


And I've done my share of charity

But left out the profanities

I know he's a busy guy and probably won't remember these


The omnipotent editor knows all the tricks by now I'm sure

But first impressions stick, so I am leading with my best foot first


So now I wait for the response

A call from my potential boss

Did I apply 'cause I am lost?

Is it too late to call it off?


[Chorus]

I didn't know I had an answer for this question 'till I asked

But now that I am set in motion all I want's a second chance

Take it back


[Verse 2]

And I'm flinching as I check the mail

And flip through bills and grocery sales

I throw out all the clutter, understand that it can't help me now

But there it is, I've finally heard

'Cause in my hands: the holy word

The envelope is gold and it's addressed to "whom it may concern"


And I’m too scared

To look inside

With shaking hands

And fading eyes


But nothing now can change at all the contents of this envelope

It's best I get this over with, 'cause ignorance won't save my soul


And I read the words one at a time

But can't get past the leading line

My eyes refocus, open wide...

"Your application's been denied"


[Chorus]

Didn't know I had an answer for this question 'till I asked

But now that I may never have it, all I want's a second chance

Take it back


[Verse 3]

"Your application's been denied

We can't accept you at this time

We'll keep your paperwork on file

We'll reach back out when it's your time"

"We know that life can seem so cruel

That's why today is just too soon

You still have so much left to do

The world's not ready to lose you"


"So many lives to still impact

Some still have yet to cross your path

We know that it's a lot to ask

Please learn your worth, and take it back

Take it back"


[Outro]

I take it back...

“Did I apply ’cause I am lost? Is it too late to call it off?”
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Now he’s wondering why he’s doing it and starts to doubt If he really wants to go all the way.

“I didn’t know I had an answer for this question ’till I asked But now that I am set in motion all I want’s a second chance”
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Now he’s starting to freak out because he instantly regrets trying to kill himself. He’s not sure he can stop it now, but he wants to. He wants to stay alive.

“I take it back...”
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In the end the person trying to end his life understands the worth of living and changes his mind and lives on. ||| Your Life is important, sometimes life may get so hard to resist but keep living and once a Wise man said – “If you stay alive, good things are bound to happen”

Image description Source – One Piece Movie

“”So many lives to still impact Some still have yet to cross your path”
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These lines continue speaking from the perspective of God returning and denying the writer’s “Application of Suicide”.

Impacting other people’s lives is one of the strongest things humans can do, especially considering the idea of existentialism. When it feels like nothing matters because death is imminent, remembering that you have the power to change people’s lives is such an important thing to hold onto.

Being told with confirmation from a higher power that you have purpose, meaning, and an impact on the lives of people around you isn’t something to take lightly. It could even be an inspiration to stay alive, which is exactly what the application denial is trying to do.

“12 point font”
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12 point font is standard size for most academic papers. It’s equivalent to 1/6 of an inch.

“MLA”
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MLA (Modern Language Association) style is most commonly used to write papers and cite sources within the liberal arts and humanities.

“My awards are all in order and my references are pretty strong My bullet points concise and now my grammar’s fixed and typos found”
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The writer of this application is trying to make sure everything is in order and everything is perfect, as everything needs to be.
It makes sense that you’d want to perfect your application, as if you apply to something, the end goal is to be accepted.
But in addition, with the idea he is applying to die, it makes even more sense that the writer would want it to be perfect.
If it’s the last thing he’s creating or doing in the material world, he needs it to be perfect.

This could also be seen as an attempt to prolong his life. When battling with suicide, your brain is at a constant war. While you want to die, something inside your deep subconscious is trying to keep you alive.
So while he is writing this out, continuing to make adjustments so that everything lines up perfect, it’s prolonging his eventual fate, even if only for a few moments.

“I’m hopin’ if she sees it I have made my English teacher proud”
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Any English teacher would be proud that a student was following MLA guidelines.

“The envelope is gold and it’s addressed to “whom it may concern””
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The name doesn’t matter because everyone in the world has value and is important to someone else.

“”We know that life can seem so cruel That’s why today is just too soon You still have so much left to do The world’s not ready to lose you””
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Here the god is trying to convey that, Life can be so cruel but it is not right to jump to the conclusion so fast, there’s a lot left in your life, you will meet so many lives and will impact them, you will god to so many different places, and a lot of other things are still waiting to be done by you, so the world is not really to lose you and thus this is not the time for your life to end [yet]

“I sent my résumé to God”
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The person in the song is trying to commit suicide.

“We know that it’s a lot to ask Please learn your worth, and take it back Take it back””
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it is still the god talking, and he’s saying that he knows it is a lot to ask, and that life is so hard that ending it seems more convenient than living it hopelessly, but it is important to learn your worth, your importance, and that you will do things that will impact the world. So, take it back. which means don’t try to end your life anymore, and LIVE

“”Your application’s been denied We can’t accept you at this time We’ll keep your paperwork on file We’ll reach back out when it’s your time””
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This seems like God telling him that it isn’t the time for him to die yet.

“So now I wait for the response A call from my potential boss”
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It seems as though he tried to commit suicide by taking something, as he’s now waiting for it to start having an effect.

““Your application’s been denied””
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His applicattion being denied means that he wasn’t sucessful at his suicide attempt.

“My eyes refocus, open wide...”
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This might be litteraly happening, his eyes refocus and open wide as he regains conscience.

“With shaking hands And fading eyes”
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I think he might be losing consience after having taken whatever it was he took.

“Didn’t know I had an answer for this question ’till I asked But now that I may never have it, all I want’s a second chance”
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Again, this is him realizing this might be the end and he is now terrified.

It reminds a lot of the poem “The View from Halfway Down” from an episode of Netflix TV show BoJack Horseman, which, largely surrounds the final moments of a suicidal Secretariat, having jumped off the George Rogers Clark Memorial Bridge and realizing that he wanted to live but that living was no longer an option “halfway down.”

Here’s a link for the poem:

(poem)
“And I’ve done my share of charity But left out the profanities I know he’s a busy guy and probably won’t remember these”
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As he reflects on his life choices, he hopes God takes in consideration the good he’s done and not the bad.