Hate Myself - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

The younger me would be so sad to meet me

The younger me would be so mad of dreaming

He probably be like, "You'd be better off sleeping"

And now I know why you afraid of jumping in the deep end

He be like, "What you think?" I say depends

Finally, I don't have to work weekends

I'm not as lonely or depressed 'cause now I got a girlfriend

And girls send me nudes so I know my music's working, and

[Pre-Chorus]

Uh, I just wanna end it right now

Uh, I don't even wanna find out

Uh, I don't got space in the bottle

The word forevеr is a real hard to swallow, and

Uh, I don't feel like I belong in my skin, and

Uh, shit, I don't think I'll еver fit in, and

Uh, feels like I shoulda been dead

Living on a second chance, that fucks with my head

[Chorus]

Sometimes I wish that I was someone else

Sometimes I wish that I was honest with myself

Am I just too proud to ask for help?

Sometimes I wish I didn't fucking hate myself

But I hate myself

Uh, but I hate myself

[Verse 2]

The younger me won't believe what I'm thinking

The younger me wanna do some shit different

He freaking out 'cause he don't wanna feel destined

To wake up every day not recognizing his reflection

Confession, sick never looked so sexy

Growing up never looked so messy

The world we live in never felt so techy

Wonder if I went missing, would anybody miss me?

[Pre-Chorus]

Uh, I just wanna know how you feel

Uh, I just wanna know if it's real