(Hook: Xael)

What's left of my own devices

And now I'm in deep

I'm dreamin' of paradises

But I'm not asleep

(Interlude)

Not asleep...

(Verse 1)

And I've been dreaming about this, not even sleeping but dreaming about it

Keep it 100, stay behind the corner, peeking around it, no one could doubt it

Always the quiet kid, I prefer silence and no one around me could keep me from trying it

Living a dream and I think I could hide in it - and I think I could hide in it

Truth is that I know it's too late to turn around nothing is working out

Look for a workaround I would just burn the ground and start pretending that I never heard a sound

Staring at the ceiling - in bed still not sleeping - thinking 'bout achieving

My dreams but I'm just a human being (just a human being)

Almost 4 am, I should sleep there's no attempt

Eyes open I'm not content, not again, fuck fake friends

Maybe I should get some meds, get me to bed

And let me rest - just let me rest, yeah

(Hook: Xael)

What's left of my own devices

And now I'm in deep

I'm dreamin' of paradises

But I'm not asleep

(Verse 2)

Staying alone those nights has grown on me it's just so peaceful

But the thoughts inside my head just keep turning lethal

One moment my mind's creative, seconds later it's debating

If I'm just wasting my time or if I actually make it

And I never knew which way to go, an attempt at staying strong

Should I just keep making songs, play along, pretend I'm gone?

Cause in the end I'm all alone, on my own

No one knows, where I've gone - never home

Take me away just let me dream of being something special

Let me fly, if I want it then I should come and get it

Sometimes I'm glad everything in this world is unprotected

Sometimes I'm glad everything in this world is unprotected

(Hook: Xael)

What's left of my own devices

And now I'm in deep

I'm dreamin' of paradises

But I'm not asleep

(Verse 3)

Look...

My phone is off again, cause I do not have friends

I tried to make amends but whenever we shake hands

You would just cross your fingers, hide them behind your back

And then just fuck me over, oh please not again

Silence is love - darkness is life

Nobody knows - if I'm alright

I'd love to show someone how fucked up my life really is

But no one cares about it, that's just how it really is

(Interlude)

Haha, you know, there is a saying

"Fool me once, shame on you - fool me twice, just fuck you forever and get the fuck out of my life you little bitch"

(Hook: Xael)

What's left of my own devices

And now I'm in deep

I'm dreamin' of paradises

But I'm not asleep