[Verse 1]

Just got on the phone with my homie Danny

He’s sounding pretty proud about my show this last week

Said, "Bro you’re on the road to being global and we

See you doin shit I dream of but don’t seem happy

What the fuck is up with that man?

Should be pouring up a double cup of the lean

Pop a bean, live the dream or least celebrate, entertain the thought"

But do I really want the fame or not? Cause sometimes

I’ve been snortin Farrah Fawcett

I’ve been smoking marijuana

Yea I got a girl sometimes

I act like I don’t care about her

Eh-aye, and that ain’t me, a trapped soul, you can ask jp

And that makes me question what my dad told me at 18

Because he told me I would be something, that ain’t free

I’m lost in this world cause I search for the answers

That usually are right there in front of me

Like why I’m wondering why I must succeed

When I know dozens of loved ones look up to me

Eh-aye, and that’s a lot to measure up to

Confused, battling depression

Momma battling her sickness, and she has too many tremors

And I feel like I’m at fault, cause I’m cracking under pressure

I just wanna see my family together

But that could never happen cause we never put our passion over pleasure

I just hope that I’ll look back and say, "This chapter was a mess

But no it couldn’t have happened any better"

Oh, and oh god, do I even know god?

I just hope that all my soul searchers, know their purpose, this is yo song, sing it

[Chorus]

I’ve been trynna find myself

Cause I feel like

I don’t know who I am right now

(I've been ageing, rearranging, facing change)

I’ve been trynna find myself

Cause I feel like

I don’t know who I am right now

[Verse 2]

Dropped out of school for the time being

Everybody judging but I did it for the right reasons

I see em criticize, are they wise even?

I feel like I’m alive when I’m mind reading

My phoenix on the rise, I'm a light beaming

Life is a drive full of dry heaves and sightseeing

My demons do not like when I try to remind

Them that I’m gonna fight or that I’m healing

I don’t know what I’m believing in

I was told as a toddler, “Be devoted and righteous”

Here’s a quote from my paps, he said “Jehovah’s your god”

Said, “ I don’t know if I want this”

(I don't know if I want..)

Now there’s holes in my conscience, never hoped in a doctrine

Been atonin for my sins, feel alone and psychotic

Yea and here’s a confession, I got a fear of rejection

I’m way too overly cautious, I don’t know how to stop it

Runnin' away from problems, problems

Tuck em away and they are not resolved, never

Wanted the ways of my father, father

It's something ingrained but can I change the shit?

I’ve been in and out of these relationships

I get unfaithful when right when they commit

I tell em, “Baby listen, I got some thangs I did

But it’s ok I’m dippin”, fuck all the pain I’m in

[Chorus]

I’ve been trynna find myself

Cause I feel like

I don’t know who I am right now

(I've been ageing, rearranging, facing change)

I’ve been trynna find myself

Cause I feel like

I don’t know who I am right now

[Outro]

She asked me if I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

If I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

She asked me if I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

If I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

She asked me if I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

If I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

She asked me if I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter

If I wanna fly to jupiter, jupiter