Empty

By Boyinaband

Released on June 8, 2018

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[Verse 1: Boyinaband]

Mirror mirror on the wall (Yeah)

Tunnel vision on the flaws

In the scale of things, it's unimportant

So no talking, but it's still an intrusive thought

Tried hard to correct it (Yeah)

But nothing was effective

No one else seemed so obsessed with it

Things were desperate until the voice crept in

"I can help you, trust me, you're ready"

It seemed dangerous, but it said to have faith in it

"The secret is to just be empty"

Didn't know if it was wise to listen

But, what could it hurt to try?


[Verse 2: Jaiden Animations]

And at first, it was working

But, then things were emerging

Cracked lips and tired eyes

I'm hungry with no appetite

I'm shivering and shaking, and I tell myself it's fine, but

You can't fool your body, you can only fool your mind (Yeah)

Empty, I just need to be empty

Hide from anybody who'll prevent me

Just fill up on water and shame

No, I'm not hungry, I just ate

I've developed a taste for this

Endure the never-ending ache

Convince myself I'm in control and it's not

All that voice that makes me sick


[Chorus: Boyinaband & Jaiden Animations]

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

I'm looking, but I can't see myself

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

But, it's so hard to stop it alone


[Verse 3: Boyinaband]

Been getting even worse

All the days begin to merge (Yeah)

Just a blurry haze and now it's

Almost second nature to ignore the urges

Can't trust my own nature

Every calorie a failure

Gotta push the intake down every day

'Cause the voice comes back to say

"You want to eat? Bite your tongue"

Don't want to stay an embarrassment

Just have to stomach it

"They don't know what you want"

A tug of war against common sense

Don't wanna believe that I've overstepped


[Verse 4: Jaiden Animations]

But it's so overwhelming

And I hope no one can tell

'Cause the numbers keep decreasing

This ordeal is becoming routine, check

Arms, back, neck, thighs

Suck it in and pinch my sides

The scales are betraying me

The mirror is a lie (Yeah)

Numbers, it all comes down to numbers

I know it's wrong, but

Just because you know you're colorblind

Doesn't mean you can see the colors

Fine, I'll admit I'm addicted

But the hunger feels good, how do I quit this?

I know I could die, I've seen the statistics

But, the voice is with me through thick and thin


[Chorus: Boyinaband & Jaiden Animations]

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

I'm looking, but I can't see myself

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

But, it's so hard to stop it alone

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

I'm looking, but I can't see myself

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

But, it's so hard to stop it alone

[Bridge: Jaiden Animations with Boyinaband]

I can reach out to someone not like me

If you ask for help, it doesn't make you weak

I can reach out to someone not like me

I can help my mind learn to trust my body

I can reach out to someone not like me

If you ask for help, it doesn't make you weak

I can reach out, ignore what the voice tells me

I can help my mind learn to trust my body


[Chorus: Boyinaband & Jaiden Animations]

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

I'm looking, but I can't see myself

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I kn-I know it's wrong

But, it's so hard to stop it alone

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty

I can reach out (I can reach out, oh-oh-oh-oh)

Inside it's em-em-em-empty

I can reach out (I can reach out)