If I didn't write you back too soon
I would've dropped down to the floor
I would've thrown my pen right into the garbage
When I see you look into the moon
It sends me for a terror ride
It makes my life lose 90% of purpose
Is all of this worthless?
I feel betrayed but I can't make you leave
Fall between you, I can't make you see
Feel alone when I don't want to be
When she's away I never get to sleep
I feel destroyed but I can't make you stay
Feel deceived but I can't make you stay
Feel depleted, i can't change this fear
Feel defeated, I can't stay right here
And If i never saw your face again
I could not be out in public but at least I could pull myself together
And If I couldn't trust you until the end
Then trust must never have existed and I thought it looked a bit like a specter
A bit like a specter
I feel betrayed but I can't make you leave
Fall between you, I can't make you see
Feel alone when I don't want to be
When she's away I never get to sleep
I feel destroyed but I can't make you stay
Feel deceived but I can't make you stay
Feel depleted, i can't change this fear
I'm defeated, I can't stay right here