[Verse 1]
When it happened to you
I knew what to say
When it happened to me
I put on my oldest clothes
I watched TV shows
I got big and pigeonholed
I watched TV shows
I lost friends and my collar bones
[Verse 2]
It's been in the air
Olympic summer never rained
It made the city fake
So we went up and down the coast
While they all microdosed
They broke trust and traded clothes
While they all microdosed
I got bored in our family home
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause I'm a bad, bad girl
Bad, bad girl
[Chorus]
The problem is I don't know what I want anymorе
Glued a rose to the top of thе door but it fell
Life may have been happening elsewhere
And I don't know what I want anymore
Broke your heart by asking the question
Life may have been happening elsewhere
[Verse 3]
When I'm with a man, I'm only gay
When I'm with a girl, I've been lying
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause I'm a bad, bad girl
Bad, bad girl
[Chorus]
The problem is I don't know what I want anymore
Glued a rose to the top of the door but it fell
Life may have been happening elsewhere
And I don't know what I want anymore
Broke your heart by asking the question
Life may have been happening elsewhere
[Bridge]
If someone's building model rockets
Set one off in my apartment
Dancing like a soda can
A building structure in Japan
That's swaying like a wire cord
It's a tragedy you can't afford
To be someone who complains
And still be someone who gets paid
[Chorus]
And I don't know what I want anymore
Glued a rose to the top of the door but it fell
Life may have been happening elsewhere
And I don't know what I want anymore
Broke your heart by asking the question
Life may have been happening elsewhere
Life may have been happening elsewhere
Life may have been happening elsewhere
These lyrics refer to some of the insecurities commonly faced by the bisexual community. Some may view bisexual people as “half gay and half straight” compared to wholly bisexual.
Teitelbaum is a bisexual woman, and this may reflect her experiences with judgement against her sexuality.
Via Flood Magazine:
Sometimes trying to stay healthy can feel like that, like life is happening somewhere else. That’s what the song is about, and about feeling conflicted.
That’s why I wanted it to also have the line about being bi. I think my sexuality is not the most interesting thing about me—when you end up talking about it, it can get flattened—but it’s part of my experience. In my experience as someone who’s bi, you can attribute your dissatisfaction to your sexuality. When I’m with men, I’m like, “Uh, I’m probably a lesbian.” Then when I’m with women, I’m like, “I’m obviously just straight.” You’re hearing all this biphobia in your head. That came up in this song.