Been running in circles for years

Still stuck

Still scared

I feel so fucking lost

I wake up shaking before I can breathe

My mind hits hard like it wants me to bleed

I try to hold myself together but I break again

And I hate the person I become when the fear kicks in

I don't trust people, I've learned to stay alone

Every time I open up, it cuts straight to the bone

My chest locks tight before the day begins

And I'm tired of pretending that I'm stronger than this

Nothing hеlps

Nothing fucking works

Therapy changes nothing

My therapist said hе needs a therapist after hearing me

And it scared the hell out of me

I don't know how to live with this fear

It hits my chest and keeps me here

I just want a moment where I can breathe

But I'm scared of myself more than anything

I don't know how to feel okay

Everything I try just fades away

I just want to feel normal again

But the fear in me keeps breaking me

Afraid to open up

Because people leave

Afraid to trust

Because trust cuts deep

Afraid to feel too much

Because I fall apart

Afraid to love

Because love never stays

Afraid of changing

Because change hurts

Afraid of staying the same

Because this pain won't stop

Afraid of losing control

Because I know how it ends

Afraid of myself

Because I'm the one who breaks me

Every day gets heavier

Every night I break

Nothing I try

Takes this fear away

Can't trust anyone

Can't trust me

Can't escape

What's inside of me

All I want

Is to feel normal

Just once

Just once

I don't know how to live with this fear

It hits my chest and keeps me here

I just want a moment where I can breathe

But I'm scared of myself more than anything

I don't know how to feel okay

Every step I take pulls me the wrong way

I just want to feel normal again

But the fear in me keeps drowning me

Still scared

Still trying

Still breathing

Still here