[Verse 1]

I bet I'm losing my life when I'm twenty-five

I keep it real with you, I hope I fucking die

But last night, I had a dream that I was fine

I took a trip to a better place, I was happy with my life

I found some people really give a fuck about me

I found some people feel they couldn't live without me

I woke the fuck up, realized that I'll never meet any of the people that I thought I fucking had

Turn around, straight back to cigarettes, I add

So much pain to the people who around me

Nothing I can gain and my family just doubt me

Try and aim the blame at somebody I live without, see

[Chorus]

I'm out of it, I tried to start to give a shit

And if I had to choose, I'm picking money over happiness

At least my fucking money, I can keep

But if I'm happy, I know I'm about to lose it in a week

[Verse 2]

See, permanent satisfaction just doesn't exist

At least I never felt it, I'm just speaking from me

Happy as a kid, I guess it's something I miss

At least I'm not dead, I'm just tryna be

Better for the people that I care about

It's black inside my heart, don't fucking wear it out

I wish I knew how to talk to you, I just scream and shout

I guess it doesn't matter

[Chorus]

I'm out of it, I tried to start to give a shit

And if I had to choose, I'm picking money over happiness

At least my fucking money, I can keep

But if I'm happy, I know I'm about to lose it in a week