Another birthday

And I know you forgot

I found it hard to give a fuck

Because my stomach’s in knots

They told me life would just get easier, I swear that it’s not

What do I got?

I just want to turn my mind off

Settle down in a casket

Case so basket

Smoking loud packs

Just to mask my baggage

How you actin with the questions you asking is maddening

Like walking on a bad knee

You don’t like me

And I don’t like you

So don’t waste my time

And I won’t mind you

And we both so fake

Every day, grittin teeth

Just to say “I’m great”

Why can’t we

Stop and just try to be, try to be normal?

You want me cus you be, cus you be bored, tho

Arguing, how do we, how do we afford to

Try to keep, reviving love when it’s mortal?

Worried I’m back to fixing problems with a bottle

I need a drink, I overthink I think I’m Aristotle

Feel like my face is bleeding

I never see a ceiling

All words are losing meaning

Like I love you even

And I think I fell in love with a ghost

You were always cold to the touch

But still said “I love you most”

So did you change your mind?

Or did you lie?

I feel like you did every time

Are you alive?

You don’t like me

And I don’t like you

So don’t waste my time

And I won’t mind you

And we both so fake

Every day, grittin teeth

Just to say “I’m great”

Why can’t we

Stop and just try to be, try to be normal?

You want me cus you be, cus you be bored, tho

Arguing, how do we, how do we afford to

Try to keep, reviving love when it’s mortal?