Going Through Changes - Intellectual

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I'm going through changes

VERSE 01:

Lately I really, feel like my life is becoming silly

Feel like I'm losing control of myself, I swear me

Apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complaining

But my life keeps on complicating, and

I debate every time leaving the world every evening

No one can see I'm grieving, I try and hide and I do it

I try and act like I'm high and mighty

But inside, I'm crying, I finally realize I need help

I can't do this myself, I'm weak

A year I've been having ups and downs

Smoking with friends, dilly dallying

Around with these ideas, of ending this pity party right here

I hate my fuckin reflection, I sit around my house tryna fight tears

I can't stand what it look like, yeah, It's horrible, but does anyone care?

I ain't give a fuck, only thing I fear, is IE

I'm afraid if my eyes close she might not....shit

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VERSE 02:

I lock myself in my bedroom, own room, napping til noon

Yeah I'm always in a happy mood, but I have fucking issues

''Please I fucking miss you, I can't leave without you

And I'm fallen off with my skills, and my own family are

Laughin at you''

I'm just got problems I'm too pussy to tackle, fucked up

Be the man, that, a real man's man would've had they shit handled

I know ma you got your heart ripped out and crushed

I know I just dipped out, I just whipped out and ran

Nah, I ain't just gon leave you like that

I wouldn't fucking do that, no-body, I'll run first

But thinking of it only makes my head hurt

Now I smoke Mary, adderall, some alcohol

''Where you going Bwee?, Don't leave me!''

Gotta a sister who loves me like a father

And I can't believe I left her when, I left her

But it's the best interest to protect my only daughter

And I just lost my fuckin mind set, so fuck it, I'm guessin then:

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VERSE 03:

My friends can't understand this new me

An atomic bomb man, but think how crazy you'd be

You'd feel what's it like too be me

If you were raised in this shame and growing in a different zoo

And everybody's laughing at you, what you want me to do?

Life's starting to be a recluse and the truth is

My past is starting to give me an excuse, to be at an all-time low

I sit alone in my bedroom, watching videos of me back

When I was bullied, them bad nights, I was still alive

And it hurts so I... fast forward, Mary makes me put these aside

And if you can call me in the middle of the night

I'll just try and ignite, yeah yeah ma believe that when I recite

I ain't slowing down for no one, my feet are almost touching the ground

Almost failing in life, damn Breon c'mon, dole it out

''Bwee, don't you leave on me; Bwee, hold your common ground!''

Fuck, I hear this fucking sound of her voice

Yeah baby hold my frown

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VERSE 04:

Wake up in a wake of destruction, full of lies, but somehow I'm twisting through

Swear when I come back I'mma be bulletproof

I'mma do it just for you, I think I should state a few

Facts, cause I may not get another chance again to state these truths

Fuck it just hit me for the people that have not made it through

I talk about the things I wouldn't get to say to you

I'ma make it right for you so here's what I came to do

IE this verse is for you, Joc and my brothers too

I still love you ******, that'll never change

Think about you every day, we just couldn't love each other this way

Hey, I wish there was a better way, for me to say this

But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for you on any day

There is too many thoughts I wanna say

But 16 lines ain't gon show my emotions, but hey

I wish I couldn't feel pain, but Mary helps me when there ain't

I ain't placing blame, I ain't making shame

Heaven knows I've never been a saint

I know it just feels like I like your picture on Instagram

It pisses our history, looked at IE's picture today, no lies any day

I miss you crying constantly, wish May didn't end that way

Mom I had to get away, I can't tell why

I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm

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