[Verse 1]

I pick myself up

I let myself down

Now how am I supposed to sell out

I doubt I can reapply on indeed

I come home my cats dead

On its knees

Thats it my whole family's on their knees

I cry 10 hours

Write ten keepers

I'm a bee keeper I stay alive

I'm under the bleachers

Even though I feel like i need her

And my life's a mess

I feel like the reaper

What did I kill

Besides my feelings of grievers

Take a chill pill

Relax and start breathing

It's only one life

But don't stop believing

An afterlife is possible if I keep on needing

This is how I am

This is how I'm feeling

I try to make art but I make poetry

I try to make holes

Write in the pottery

Excuse my ignorance

There isn't an innocent thought in me

I think my life's ruined

I think they've gotten me