nothing changes if nothing changes

[Verse 1]

Lonely as I never known

Things been getting better though, should've grown

Into the throne that I was shown but couldn't let it go

Say it ain't so, not even safe inside the home

I buried everyone I known, gone cold to the things I can't control

Every day been the same, anxiety been getting old

But got a hold everywhere I fucking go, everywhere I fucking go

This ain't a place I wanna bring you, hold me while I breathe in

Faces all been see through, I been up to nothing new

Nothing in my rеason, I might pop a few

Just to feel nothing for a season

Long live thе memories, months go by like centuries

Drain me of this energy, couldn't be a friend of me

I'm the only enemy, speaking on it carefully

You ain't really know me, bitch, I say that respectfully

Missing old ways terribly, my own mental scared of me

Screaming through it endlessly, least I got some time to sleep

Only time they leave me be, only time they leave me be

This ain't for the weak, but I don't think it's built for me

Been years, I should've peaked, personal critique

Deaded all my self esteem, I'm getting used to the fatigue

Don't even speak unless you got the antidote inside your teeth

I been at it all my life, looking like I never tried

Couldn't bring me peace of mind, wondering why they let me die?

Scared of everything I hide, hate the way I been inside

Swear I wanted better times, guess they on the other side

Long live the memories, months go by like centuries

Long live the memories (Guess they on the other side)

Months go by like centuries, long live the memories

(Guess they on the other side), months go by like centuries

I hope you never feel this pain

I'm glad I'll never be the same

It ain't you that's been the blame

I'm the only reason shit don't ever change