Scars Left By Ghosts - Intellectual

[Intro]

Like a nightmare, but I can't wake up

All my love and trust is never enough

They hurt me and I cannot heal

Tho invisible the scars are all I feel

Their apathy shows they never cared

Like a dreamed up ghost they all disappeared

Their departure left a hole in me

I can't fill it, so I'm left empty

You only notice the darkness when someone shows you light

And when that ember goes out you lose your reason to fight

An explanation is no excuse

They scarred my soul to shield theirs

Left me alone with my life

Refused to tell me the "Why"

They hate me but I still care

Worry if they are secure

Don't deserve them, never good enough

It's not their fault, I am weak they're tough

Alienating to protect my soul

Then I lose them, always stay alone

I think of them every day they probably forgot my name

And even now I still love them; what was it for in the end?

Was that all that this was for?

They left a scar and moved on

Why did they leave me alone?

Why do I always think they're the one?

To stay with me till the end

I guess I've not earned a friend

Every time I think of them my mending heart just cracks and breaks again

I thought I'm numb to this but even now I'm hurt and want them back

This song is no revenge I have to say this or I will explode

The wound keeps bleeding and the scab won’t form to scar my fragile soul

I wasn’t good enough for them but I hope they find happiness

They weren't here for long but now without them I am just a mess

I prefer it if they are happy and not waste their time on me

And if that means there is no colour in my life, greys all I see

Then that at least means that I finally don't burden them no more

Tho if they would come back I'd welcome them just like I did before

I won’t abandon them I will stay loyal to the very end

And maybe someday I will learn that I do not deserve a friend