I'm afraid

More than I’ve ever been

To confront the world

To confront myself

To go to war with what's inside

Seasick, I feel nauseous

The thought of growing up sickens me

I'm not ready for what's to come

What’s to come

There's a certain depth to it

That I do not understand

So deep

I'm beyond afraid

Endlessly perched with thorns stuck in my sides

We only want what we know that we cannot have

Nothing to say, with nothing to show

How fucking miserable

I cannot take back time I’ve wasted

Flexing out legs of dangers spoken

Out of touch, out of line, out of my fucking mind

I lapse with my mental statе

Zygoma collapsing

Life is finite so print your purposes

I'm afraid

Morе than I’ve ever been

To confront the world

To confront myself

To go to war with what's inside

The fear of depths

The depths of hatred

The shivers, this feeling I’ve always hated

I feel like I’m falling

But I’m surrounded by water

I'm floating in a void

I'm floating in a void

A veil of darkness surrounds me

I’m afraid

What could it be

Thalassophobia