Nihilistic tendency

Chasing meaning it's hypocrisy

And I know

What it meant

To search for you

In the dark with cigarettes and some booze

(yeah you're gone, yeah you're gone)

Thinning body with a loss of self

Wish me well is it me or just my lack of mental health

(where are you, where are you where are you)

I don't know if I can take it

Watch me stumble on the basics

Wake him up

Take my lungs

I don't know how else to say this

I'm not strong enough to fake it

Leave me alone

Hedonist

Stop

So self conscious to the feelings I thought

(now you're gone and now you're gone)

Got nobody just a cigarette

Everyone you don't know is depressed it just sets me off

(where are you, where are you, where are you

I don't know if I can take it

Watch me stumble on the basics

Wake him up

You could have opened the door so much faster

Time it stands still

Hide my tears in the shower

Could we have done more lived life in the present

But take extra care so maybe we'd prevent it

I should have given you help laid you down and

Kicked in that door held your hand in that moment

I hope you weren't scared and that it all was painless

I selfishly say that for us there's only pain left

I don't know if I can take it

Watch me stumble on the basics

Wake him up

Take my lungs

I don't know how else to say this

I'm strong enough to fake it

Leave me alone

Leave me alone