Change - Intellectual

Transparent god complex but I needed something to believe in

I was only religious when I was young, but with you, part of me thought the praying wasn't leaving

But now in conversation, I correct myself day to day

I still slip up, an old force of habit, too many brainwashed years of self-appointed fake names

I'm teeming with desire to call you a liar

And that's cuz I know that it's true

I see them smile, and I'm confused

Is there finally a person that you brought love to

After all that you did, I never thought I'd see the day

They seem happy with you

But it just can't be true

Cuz that means that you were always capable of turning this way

And I just wasn't worth the change

Neglect until the moments where you wanted me to help you look like you knew what to do

Behind closed doors, with my bruised chest and wall, it became apparent you hadn't a clue

Sometimes I still wonder if I caused a blunder by not speaking out about all of your faults

But I look at you and clearly it's exclusive cuz I know you don't treat them that way at all

Don't act like a messiah

I know you're a liar

You don't know me like I know you

I see them smile, and I'm confused

Is there finally a person that you brought love to

After all that you did, I never thought I'd see the day

They seem happy with you

But it just can't be true

Cuz that means that you were always capable of turning this way

And I just wasn't worth the change

I just wasn't worth the change

When you said you loved me

Did you even mean it

I know it didn't hold up

But your answer's the difference between me crying or screaming

Were all of my feelings byproducts of dreaming

I'm sorry that my existence is inconvenient

But is this just a charade

Or do you really mean it

Cuz if this is just more of the same

Then why aren't they leaving

I guess you're fine, I guess you're swell

I guess I should be happy for you as well

I guess after all I was your deathknell who you hope never tells

I should just hope that they're OK

Because I suppose I have no place to say

But after so many years of putting me through all this pain

I should have known

You were never gonna change

You were never gonna