I didn't know how much it hurt until I walked through the door

I pulled the earbuds from out my ears and let my knees drop to the floor

I couldn't hear the beat of my heart over the thoughts in my head

When I couldn't hear that beat anymore that's how I knew I was dead

Is this how you expected this to come to an end?

Is this how you expected this to come to an end?

With the ashes in the wind and the silence left to spread

Remember me as the kid who gave it all his best

I cracked open the shaving razor and forced the blade through skin

They never tell you how much it stings and how the blood wraps the bend

And when the dissociation wore off, it reminded me that I still feel

And the nausea grows and grows and grows and it hits you that this is all so real

Is this how you expected this to come to an end?

Is this how you expected this to come to an end?

When everything is gone and the earth has burnt to death

Remember me as anything but what I could've been

How do I know that i’m alive?