Released on July 27, 2014

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[Verse 1: Beleaf]

His suicide letter read

To whom it may concern

I've been on the ledge

For sometime, no one would listen

I bet they listenin' now

Dont start cryin'

Them tears don't belong to you

You had a chance to make a difference

But what did you do?

Forgot me, like everybody else

Now you're reading this, feeling sorry for yourself

It's too late to care

No one was ever there

They just looked at me

Told me I was fat, and I was ugly

Told me I was gay

Last time you hugged me

You said you would say a prayer

Did you forget?

Did God hear it?

I been waitin' for my death, I've never feared it

I never fit in anywhere except my spirit

Am I a Terrorist?

If I take this box-

Cutter

And tear my wrist?

Is there a therapist?

Specialize in this?

Isn't it obvious?

That


[Chorus: Beleaf]

I been thinkin' bout killin' myself

But I'm entertained by how bad my life is

I'm entertained by how bad my life is

I'm entertained by how bad my life is


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[Verse 2: Beleaf]

I guess it's no ones fault but mine

Feel like I'm runnin' out of time

I guess I'll never be a graduate

What's in this.. medicine cabinet..?

Just some vitamins

Feelin' staggin

If these belts are too cheap

For me to hang myself

I don't know what I'm gonna say to God

When I see him, can't explain myself

Sound like a broken record...

Wait, give me a second

Only if I didn't have a disease

Wasn't infect-

Wasn't infected...

That's too loud, It's too loud...

Callin' out to you if you there

God

Never learned how to say a prayer

A lot of people tell me you care

But if Jesus you're really real

Then I need you to pull me near

This razor blade is about to go ear to ear

And my life ain't that entertaining

It's really just unfair...

I hope my soul is bullet-proof

I know that you are God

And most of my life I ignored the truth

Now I'm sittin' in my only suit

It's like this the only special occasion I've been invited to...

Give tomorrow a chance