[Verse 1]

Starting off first, I grew up as the shy kid

I thought no one ever really cared about what I did

Walking out of class with a frown on my face

But everyone was so ahead I couldn’t keep with the pace

Guess it happens when you grow up in a sheltered home

While all the other kids are off free to roam

But I gotta blame myself as I didn’t talk to many

Friends other than cousins? Man, I barely had any

Maybe I was scared of what other people really thought of me

Much skinnier and paler than most kids would have to be

Felt different from the pack and I didn’t like it at all

Sitting in those classes, off track, staring at the wall

But the idea of being popular was stuck in my mind

Daydreaming of a reality I was destined to find

It would be so easy and I’d feel so known

But a room full of people and I still end up alone

[Chorus]

I had these thoughts in the back of my brain

Thinking I have nothing to gain

And I’ve been looking for somebody to blame

But it all just ends the same

Call out for help just so

I choose to hold back won’t let nobody know

Fit in with the party, maybe become the host

But I feel like a ghost just doing the most

[Verse 2]

By the time I got to high school, I could make a decision

But these circles of doubt were deciding my vision

Starting learning about the world and how it really was

I can’t force the way life works just because

It’s all part of a plan but I didn’t like that plan

As it saw me slipping further from what I am as a man

I wanna be me and not controlled by a higher being

And I feel like I was being punished for not even agreeing

I took some blows, started doubting my creativity

Soon my YouTube channel had experienced inactivity

Grades were hitting the floor and my focus was stalling

The storm was at its peak, my confidence it was mauling

My parents started questioning me about my act

Which didn’t even really help just made more worries attract

I was left inside that room alone with the worst of intent

And I just stayed silent, let my thoughts present

[Verse 3]

And it was on that day, I could have done it

Thought ending my story as the pain had finally won it

To the left of me, a frightening image is all I’d see

But something talked me out of it, and I knew it couldn’t be

As I thought about the people I would hurt if I was gone

Did I go through all these years just to be another pawn?

And I kept it all inside, so I wasn’t seen as weak

I was scared everybody would see me as some suicidal freak

I finally told my parents who understand me (pew)

Had months of therapy, the only ones that really knew

Every Tuesday, I got to speak my feelings it was great

Would this even fix my problems? All I’d do is hope and wait

I was praying more due to this, will it get better?

Cuz it’s not like God would just send me a letter

I try to look for hints but all I see is 103

Now I believe in God but does God believe in me?

[Chorus]

Still have these thoughts in the back of my brain

Thinking I have nothing to gain

Still got no one else to blame

And it all just ends the same

I know that there’s hope I’ll go on

Can’t quite find the truth, is my faith gone?

Fit in with the party, maybe become the host

But I feel like a ghost just doing the most

[Verse 3]

But thank the Lord that everything had ended up great

All because of one song that would rid of my weight

That class I hated, ignited a passion in my heart

And I took a nap that night and got a total restart

Found Flex Entertainment thanks to Brad Taste

And I found a new community, I was embraced

There’s people with similar goals like me

Which boosted my confidence as you can see

When I walk around town, I’m admired by numerous

Almost like a celebrity, it’s just so humorous

No longer underweight, I’m finally up to par

Dropping even more bangers, I think I’m a star

A small town boy that hoped to live his dreams

Been working all my life just to see what it means

To be on the top on the world, the one sailing the ship

I’d like to thank everyone that ever helped me on this trip

Including Dom, Brady, Austin, David, Ryan, Mosquito, Lambo

Payden, Jake, Squeaky, Brad, Kenny, Ivan, CRZ, Schmoobin, Ruck

Matty, Mat, Kev, Nuck, Hamish, Crews, Toad, Milky, Ben, Adysen, Ethan

Max, Sarah, Mia, Emma, Callie, Graicen!

Fowler as a whole, Flex as a whole, MXW as a whole, Music as a whole

YouTube as a whole, Family as a whole, God in heaven

Can’t forget about the people I love the most: that’s Jesse, Carly, Anna, Dad

But most importantly out of everyone I wanna thank you Mom

I love you

[Outro]

The truth about my music is that not all of it is real

There is some that is real, and then there’s some that’s not true at all

And that’s just how my life is

I’m not really much of a gangster or stuff

As I usually like to pretend myself, I’m kind of a normal guy

And it’s only, I don’t know

It’s the idea of it, the idea of being something like that really inspires me

I can almost see it as a way to, you know, this is what I could be

I almost use this as a shield to not talk about my feelings that much

And just keep that all to myself and depending on how this goes

Maybe I could show my feelings more often

I feel like I get caught up in what people say about me so much

To the point where I just gotta tell myself like

Just Be Dumb Bro