If I could count to ten

Open my eyes and have it all start over again

Take back all the things I said, that I never meant

And I prayed that one day you would forget

It’s fucked up in my head

I say things I don’t mean and moments later I am filled with regret

I wouldn’t blame you if you left, it probably makes more sense

And I deserve to be alone

I hide it well, I’m like a magician

But it haunts my thoughts, keeps me lost, and it blurs my vision

I lie awake, totally afraid

Of all the thoughts in my head and the things that I’ll never face

There’s got to be a better way, but I’ll drink enough to put it off for another day

A fresh coat of paint, the broom swept emptiness looks like a new place

We just covered the stains, they’re not gone

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Sorry I led you on, I’m not brave, I’m not strong

I am barely hanging on

At the end of a rope and most of my hope is gone

Please take this bitter pill, and know my dear I miss you still

Your flowers have begun to wilt, my love

It wasn’t a momentary lapse

So many things in my past that I can never take back

Slipping slowly and failing fast

Is there part of me that’s always going to make you sad?

Let’s stop keeping track

Of all the things that you know that you need that I’ll never have

Please don’t be mad, when I’m gone

[Chorus]

Sorry I led you on, I’m not brave, I’m not strong

I am barely hanging on

At the end of a rope and most of my hope is gone

Please take this bitter pill, and know my dear I miss you still

Your flowers have begun to wilt, my love

Even when it’s sunny there’s a chance of rain

It’s followed me, everywhere, everyday

I left a note and I signed my name

It will be on the kitchen table when you wake

I gave it my best shot, but I could never see straight and I got lost

I hate it so much, is too late now?

For me to learn how?