[Verse 1]
Sick of feeling sorry for myself
Cause I'm in a hurry I got my health, yeah
Keep it to myself perks of stealth
No need to worry anyone else
Fuck understanding I need change
Gave my 2 cents I forgot my wage
Now my wallets smoking that's not sage
But the ripples got me waiting for another wave
Another day
To ride away
Until may
And the summer comes up for another stage
Tryna build the guts for another play
Arrange these words so I get to say
The love for you that I must convey
Before life takes over
Twiddling thumbs till we're closer
Can't fix the chapter on this sofa
Mind on mars in this rover
This just a dream til it's sposed to
Come to fruition when I know her
Intentions and mine
Intertwined
There's no closing the blinds till I'm seeing the signs
[Chorus]
In my notebook
I been writing all the time
I been so shook
Missing you like you're mine
[Post-Chorus]
Struggling through it all
There's no catch for you I fall
In this batch of feels I call
Who knew these walls could be too tall
Struggling through it all
There's no catch for you I fall
In this batch of feels I call
Been attacked through crumbled walls
[Verse 2]
Add a beat to the mix to rescue my mental
Everything feels less consequential
So much up top I should be charging rental
But writing fines would be the waste of a pencil
Scratch erased just get through the day
You rubbed me wrong but it's okay
The stage isn't permanent
I'm just an ornament
Conclusion been forming and
I've just been torturing ifs and whats
Why can't I sit for days and grow like stocks
Glass is broken I won't own rocks
Say I'm above it only when shit knocks
Only when this shit stops then I'll find peace
A girl on the mind is its own disease
The heat of a heart can only freeze
I'm sick of this shit so I'm done with pleas
Too many timelines in my time
Just cause it rhymes fine
Don't mean it might lie
In the open like divine
I might grind mine down to a binds rind
So I'm stopping it
Yeah I'm clocking it
Nah I'm stopping it uh