Rum filled riddled little memories

Silently you lie next to me

Thoughts tied up in misery

But your bodies heat speaks so differently

Encompassing everything that I need

Or do I just think I crave this

My head and heart contradicted

But it feels so sweet when we’re so

Is this just to distract me

Wrap my head round futile figments

Human nature got a funny way vibing

Always telling me that i need to be multiplying

My half just wants to feel home held

Zeus scorned me to search on though

Cover up my insecurities

Instead ah focusing on what i wanna achieve

You see this shit should be easy

Never really is with you and me

Isn’t with anyone

I think ive been too burned to feel love

My heart runs round in circles

Caring oh so much bout everyone else

My head then soon follows behind

- no wonder im always left blind

Whys its so hard to be selfish

I should have Viktor Vaughan as my catfish

Not running round with my head mid height

Tail between my legs and my wishes

In a little box locked tight

Maybe might be the millionth time ive said this

Im sure they say age will cure this

Here i am still confused

Ever wavering and bemused

So, Sweet ..

I swear when you zoom out you will see

So much beauty lies underneath

Although it crumbles in on me

I’d rather feel, the blues were made for those who see