I am the twist in your gut

I am the ache in your feet

The burden carried along

The punishment you received

I am the dust in your eye

The party you should've left

The words you wished you'd have said

I am the boy you regret

I am always stuck in limbo

With the patterns repeating

Under my eyelids

Staple them shut

So my existence is tied tight to nothing

But what I have grown to know

It's a vacant feeling

Side to side inside my head

I've grown numb to thе abuse

I used to beliеve in God

But that coward should've taken me

Before he took the the ones I love

I sit and wait inside my cell

Heaven come or heaven don't

Just lay me in the ground

Home becomes a captor

It's been polluted with dead air

Fleeing is a dream

But I can't make it out there

Awake to morning light

Hum the sound of solace

See in black and white

Whisper in my ear

Dress me up today

I don't want to feel

I don't wanna be me

Lead me down those stairs

Push me out your door

I don't wanna see the sun

I don't wanna see

Scream into my ear

Set the place ablaze

There is no one

There is nothing