Find myself kissing the sidewalk
Brown water and xanny together
Just trying to turn my mind off
Fool I was, thinking today would be better
Feeling I'm getting
Personal heaven
Craving I've had since I was eleven
Brain interference
That's draining my spirit
I know it's bad for me, I don't wanna hear it
All alone
No way home
All my friends
Left me for dead
I find myself here again
Here again
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die?
Without wanting to die?
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die?
Without wanting to die?
Told myself I'd find a limit
Honest-to-God I'd be done with my sinning
Two pills before I forget it
Walls closing in, the ceiling is spinning
Brain going manic
I start to panic
This night's not going the way that I planned it
Oxygen's thinning
Tires are skidding
This is all my fault, man, who am I kidding?
Close my eyes
Say good bye
Let me be
Let me die
Mom and dad
Don't be sad
Really, it's not so bad
Not so bad
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die?
Without wanting to die?
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die?
Without wanting to die?
I've been lying
And I'm dying
And my mother
She is crying
No I'm nothing
No I'm nothing
No I'm nothing
No I'm not
I'm nothing at all
In this case ‘snow’ refers to cocaine, which can cause your nose to bleed if snorted.
The singer is drunk, stumbling down a street from taking Xanax with Alcohol.
Xanax is a medication used to treat panic and axiety disorders and the ‘brown water’ refers to Hennessy, a high percentage alcohol. When taken together, they amplify the other’s effects and there’s a higher risk for an overdose. He is kissing the sidewalk because that is what happens when you mix those two drugs, you nod and bend over so far it looks like you’re kissing the sidewalk.
