Cold - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I really wish I was cold

I wish I said what I wanted when I want, but I don't

I wish that I was a bitch

But, I've been in school for phycology since I was a kid

I'm used to pleasing everybody else ('Body else)

Nobody's hurting if I hurt myself (Hurt myself)

Oh, I wish it wasn't easy (Easy)

When I say I'm happy, they believe me (Believe me)

I'm just dancing around all of the things I wanna say

I should just say 'em, but I don't wanna today

'Cause I won't know what to do when I'm making you cry (Cry)

But if I'm being honest (Honest)

I'm really bad at being honest (Honest)

I know I have to say it (Say it)

But I know I won't unless I'm wasted (I'm wasted)

Yeah, I would rathеr fantasize about the end of my lifе

Instead of building up the courage just to tell you goodbye

If I'm being honest (Honest)

I have to tell you I don't want this (Want this)

I'm really good at being

Anything you want me to be

I can switch it up if you don't like what you see

Oh, I wish I wasn't like this

But I want you to know I'm really trying

But I'm still dancing around all of the things I wanna say (I wanna say)

I should just say 'em, but I don't wanna today

'Cause I won't know what to do when I'm making you cry (Cry, cry, cry)

But if I'm being honest (Honest)

I'm really bad at being honest (Honest)

I know I have to say it (Say it)

But I know I won't unless I'm wasted (Wasted)

Yeah, I would rather fantasize about the end of my life

Instead of building up the courage just to tell you goodbye

If I'm being honest (Honest), oh

I have to tell you I don't want this

I'm really good at being

Anything you want me to be (I can't focus)

I'm just what I want you to see (I don't want this)

Anything you want me to be (I can't focus)

I'm just what I want you to see (I don't want this)