[Verse 1]

If I die alone

I hope I die alone believing

In higher power, higher hopes

Higher form of being

I assault Ayatollah

I know the treason

My soul is wine-red

My nose is bleeding

Five roads ahead

That's five roads misleading

My dose of violence

Is high-voltage seating

You may know the words

But only I know the meaning

And I hold a title

That I don't believe in

I lost the finals

The trials the season

But I saw the vitals

And my heart was beating

The choir inspired

The fire I'm feeding

The when, the where

The why, the reason

[Chorus]

Lonely nights I'm wondering

Was our time together all a bluff

Only when I'm lost and broken

Does your company feel not enough

There's no equation

No conversation

It feels frustratin', baby

Tell me all the quiet parts aloud

This isolation in a crowd

[Verse 2]

Doubling back

Too many people in my DMs

I ain't been hitting 'em back

Healthy cope I abuse vices

'Till the therapy lasts

I ain't see nothing but pings

From family and friends

That just wanna help

But I'm so available to people

That don't need me

I feel like a savoir

I feel like a bum

When I'm asking for help

Cause I inherited the flaws of my grandfather

Masculine urge to provide at the cost of my happiness

FUCK IT

If it make people laugh then I'll just

Chalk it up to brain rot

They asking where you get your inspiration from

I took the passion of toad

And married it with the love of hip hop

Sanctified with community built by

Jpecs

Nate and

Kobe

I mean the fucking Shaq to my drop

I don't need your pity fool

I know I owe plenty of dues

I'm hoping the allegory of origami uncover jewels

I'm hoping the hole in my soul will fill if I got people round me

But it gets harder everyday if I'm being honest

[Chorus]

Lonely nights I'm wonderin'

Was our time together all a bluff

Only when I'm lost and broken

Does your company feel not enough

There's no equation

No conversation

It feels frustratin', baby

Tell me all the quiet parts aloud

This isolation in a crowd

[Verse 3]

Trapped the bull in my mind

Then escaped from the maze

I got blessed by Ask like Paul

And transformed by his grace

Now I transform my mistakes

Into learning opportunities

Getting better by the day

But still have massive insecurities

Got a lot of friends

But they don't really hear from me

An extrovert with introverted tendency

And ACULT is my remedy

Or at least I thought

We were chatting a lot

Turns out it was just

A diary for my thoughts

Been riding the Dread my whole life like Viserys

Put my mental health on Klarna

And pretended nothing's wrong

Trying to plead about

My mind declining like Aerys

But my ability to reach

Ears isn't very Strong (very strong)

Spend my whole life

Tryna get more people 'round me

Then I started getting people 'round me

When I got old

Turns out all those people

Didn't fix the hole in my soul

I'm making my story untold

A story I told

[Chorus]

Lonely nights I'm wonderin'

Was our time together all a bluff

Only when I'm lost and broken

Does your company feel not enough

There's no equation

No conversation

It feels frustratin', baby

Tell me all the quiet parts aloud

This isolation in a crowd

[Verse 4]

Yo

Lately I've been feeling isolated in Crowds

Elated but deflated once they're facing me down

Like everyone is chasing the crown

Without' making a sound

They're just faker than the playing card

That she kept laced in her gown

So now I'm taking this round

Yeah I'm taking this shot

Liquors nice cause

It's easier to fake it than rot

Chance it like it's paper v rock

Or Vader if it's sabre v Glock

But I'm running out of time on the clock

And so I'm trapped by my own thoughts

Lapped by my own loss

Never sure if I do it for them

Or my own wants

Fit in or your Andromeda

Chained on your own rock

Try to get back in now

But the zone's been locked

My mind just keeps going, going, going

No it won't stop

They don't wanna hear you speak

If it's broke talk

Like, bro stop

You're a downer, let us hear a joke

Knock knock

Whose there

Who cares once the truth's shared

Dropped

[Outro/Chorus]

Lonely nights I'm wonderin'

Was our time together all a bluff

Only when I'm lost and broken

Does your company feel not enough

(Broken)

(Our time together all a bluff)

(When I'm lost and broken)

(Your company)

(not enough)

There's no frustration

No conversation

It feels frustratin', baby

Tell me all the quiet parts aloud

This isolation in a crowd