If I could explain it, then I would

You know I would

And if I could explain it, then I would

I know I should

And if I could explain it, then I would

Oh I would

I wrote a lot of words that I never meant

Left my selfish tendencies encased inside of sediment

My regiment is endless

I'm the president of weathermen

So catch me on a rainy day with feathers in a weather brim

It ain't a mystery why history is myth to me

I watch the planet dwindle into entropy

My friends and me are listening to milo and a tree house made of toothpicks

Building toward the sky, we'll be swimming in that blue midst

Until we hit the sun, like a liquor scented Icarus

My wax wings are catching the flickering that finished it

The flames

Forgetting i'm the same as Greek legends were

'Cause I'm looked back upon with a separate curve

That's the only reason I was ever passin' classes

Sat in back with half-rimmed glasses, playin' pokemon and laughin'

And instructions from the substitute

Functionin' as someone new

But nameless at the same

Hope that's enough for you

I said

But nameless at the same

I’m heaven’s sin if that's enough for you

Buildin' up my courage via self imposing subterfuge

I feel like a frame, in which there sits a picture

Which resembles all the fixtures that I can visit through elixir

I'm not trippin', I'm not crazy, I'm not steppin' out of line

I'm the only function circumventing it's design

And ignoring every law set in place in the past

I'm a jackson pollock painting in a plague doctor's mask

I'm an aphrodisiac with a rather sleazy knack

For retainin' information when it passes through my back

I'm a tip of a knife, in the grip of a vice

I'm weak, the old me is still invisionin' life

From the barrier death creates, carryin' the message late

This is but an ode to the precarious and second rate

This is but an overthought analysis of malice in society

Variety is quietly expiring

And I can see the ambien inclusion on my sides

Openin' up the gates, before i open up my eyes

And see

Open up my eyes, and wait till I fall back asleep

Back asleep

See, I stopped using a fake voice in rap

Stop pretending that I was someone who is stronger than I am

Stop facilitating ego on a hunt for validation

And i somehow ended up exactly where I started

And exactly where I started is exactly where I am

In my room alone at 4 AM with nothing I can stand

I forgot the person who i used to be, he's in the past now

And I'm still waiting for the future