All alone as night creeps in violently. Should i close my bedroom window as if it doesn't frighten me

For years the words have been pushing back against my teeth. I wish i could release them but i'm too terrified to speak. After a while it all becomes so vague and average, so no one remembers to see, what a so called man like you did to a boy like me

And i'll remind myself to forget your grave. But does this make me brave? Or just more afraid?

All alone as night creeps in violently. Should I close my bedroom window as if it doesn't frighten me? I'll puzzle the parts as they tear me apart. I act to cope but not from the heart

For years the words have been pushing back against my teeth. I wish i could release them but i'm too terrified to speak. After a while it all became so vague and average, so no one remembers to see, what a so called man like you did to a boy like me

You shaped our shapelessness. Casting away all family ties. Fleeing from yourself, my mother and i. No more Friday nights. No more you and i