[Intro: LordGxdKEY]

Shit man you don't even know the half bruh

And the shit I done been through bro

I ain't even wanna wake up sometimes bro

The shit I done took risks for and shit

Not getting much on the return of investment bruh

But seeing you keep going bro

Keep me going man

I be wanting to give up

But I ain't giving up

Keep going bro foot on the pedal type shit

[Verse: Apeman]

Told you this shit got to personal

What else could I put in my verses?

Was hurting these women and snorting absurdities

Was acting reckless and was worth it

However interpreted

My regrets on the surfacе

I wrote this letter causе I learned

What else could you want from me?

This is real this this is honesty

Honest you don't want it told

Placed my honor in pockets with holes

Lived my life for another

I lost my goals

I lived my life in a slumber

Told her I'd give her some gold for her troubles

Holy I don't do thrones or the Rollies

I just dig moats build boats that could hold me

Lonely guess it's the life that I wanted

I can't throw stones from this rubble

I'm rich if this hunger was money

Fuck it

In love with the way these drugs love me

I get a buzz from the place that I was in

There's tuss in my stomach

Dxm might be my favorite substance

She don't like details but it's fun when she bugging

Tell me she don't fuck with my drug use

If she knew the beans I threw up or the bumps that I run through

She prolly wouldn't come to the jungle

Every time we fuck than it's fuck you

See her out the house leaving puddles

I been in the house cause they punish

Seeing my accounts low amounts looking rummaged

Let it sit for months cause I'm stuck

Let her fall in love with me

Cause breaking it up been my luck

It she taking drugs with me

Know it's cause I like coming up

Lights coming on

Sun coming up and my searching for righteousness ain't going on

I'm Peaking

Look to the moon for my reason

Look to these shrooms for a teacher

I look for the groom I could be in the future

And I see her beauty lose I don't need it

I love this music way more than biology's proof

So I only get through when I dream it

Wonder what I'm gonna do when I'm too old for you and I'm begging for solace and meaning

Guess we gon see