Vacation - Intellectual

[Intro: Jeannette Baker]

I wish I could take a vacation from my mind!

[Verse 1]

I learned my morals from a cheater, a liar, and a deceiver

Always seemed to forgive her, but never really believe her

That's why I hook my speakers and wires to the receiver

Tryna escape the fire and not be a vile creature

Barely survive the ’80s, a baby without a teacher

Who's so materialistic, I'm always drivin’ a Beamer

Overachiеver, overseas smokin' reefеr

But had a panic attack and thought it was a stroke or seizure

I battled demons for all of the wrong reasons

Fightin', cheatin', and swearin', instead of swearin' allegiance

I only saw my father on the weekends

And some special events, but my memory's out of sequence

I learned to swim in the deep ends and mastered my defense

But still crucify him when he repents

My worse critic is livin' under this fitted

Defeated fetal position, was sick but couldn’t admit it

Overthink, overanalyze, ruminate

Fumin’ with hate over these stupid mistakes

The most self-loathin' member of the human race

Need Professor X to try to control my mutant traits

Back to square-one, life ain’t fair, son

Search for higher ground to try to shoot off this flare gun

Maybe a ship will get me off of this place

I'm always in my own head starin' off into space

[Chorus: Jeanette Baker]

I wish, I could take, a vacation, from my mind!

[Verse 2]

I had enough meds that never work, friends who end up jerks

Supposedly famous, but I don't get all of the perks

My heart’s racing off of Ritalin, spiralin'

Bring me to the ER, call the medics or firemen

I feel panic like, shooters are firin'

At me with accuracy of Boomer Esiason

Boomers are retiring while I exist Check to Check

A nervous wreck 'cause the future looks violent

Nervous attachment, circuits are crashin'

Searching facial features for a certain reaction

Readin' too deep into nothin', it's straight buggin'

But my brain stay buzzing like a circus attraction

Losing my shit but on the surface, I'm laughin'

And searchin' for anything that could serve as a distraction

(Stop playin' with my mind!)

Feelin' just like that line from Terror Fabulous ~ "Action"

Relaxin', cool as a breeze through palm trees

While I'm tryna get away from these fools and zombies

I'm super paranoid, so the hammer is on me

Tryna clear all my karma so spirits don't haunt me

Back to home base, life ain't so safe

I can't imagine tryna navigate it with no faith

It's pure hell, too awful to face

That's why I'm in my own head starin' off into space

[Outro: Jeanette Baker]

I wish, I could take, a vacation, from my mind!

A vacaaaa...... mind!!!